Listen to how the snowflakes fall.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Feeling a lot better after a good 11 hours of sleep. Having a day to laze around and just being by yourself is absolutely heaven. Went for a massage and the woman told me my backbone was curved. Uh-oh. Better start carrying back packs and having the good old sitting posture again. Hope it will straighten itself out if that is possible. Still in the rut and still trying to come up with a solution for myself for the problem. I will see how things go and take it in my stride.No point worrying over What-Ifs. I am so over it. All I know is that all it takes is one more pin to be stuck in me before something happens. I love ZYS cuz she is not human.

Sweet Memories.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Just when one wound has almost closed, I have another forming and it just seems to be a string of never ending pain. Does it really have to be like this? Why can't I have a conflict free life God? One which is boring where I can be happy in my own bubble of a world? I guess what I am asking for is ridiculous and impossible. But many a time I have wished for thus.

Perhaps its my own issue. I really do not know how to interact with people. I find it hard to keep myself in check. Going overboard and enjoying it. Words exchanged, fingers burnt and ultimately one heck of a mess of broken relationships to clear. Once the mess is formed, its very difficult for me to try or even bring myself to put the pieces together. It just eats me away bit by bit. I try to divert my attention to other things to numb out the throbbing which leaves me moody, tired and a headache. I know that things need to be resolved but I just can't get over it.

It does not end with one, it continues as the previous hurt gets transmitted into my other interactions and its like a slippery slope. I really want to shut myself up in a place where there is only myself. Better to be alone till I can interact properly with people again. Perhaps not spending as much time with people is better as there is a lesser chance of stepping on toes. I really don't know how to get my perception across and my unique way of doing things.

I think its just me and God you really need to take the wheel. Before I wreck this car of mine. How do you not lose yourself amidst change? I don't know how to do it, to me its two extremes and I don't know how to proceed. The one thing that would most likely take me down into the pits would be conflicts and relationships gone awry. It is something I can't avoid, that's life but I do wonder if it can hurt less.

My mind is like cotton candy now, the kind gone bad and I think a good time of rest is in order before I even think of trying to set things straight and battling the exam monsters.

I commit this verse unto your hands God:

Though you have made me see troubles,
many and bitter,
you will restore my life again;
from the depths of the earth
you will again bring me up.

Psalms 71:20

I hope I get out of this rut, I hate it when I am like this. Moody and all.
I want joy and a peace of mind.
And a conflict free life. I guess that's too much to ask isn't it?

Sweet Memories.

Friday, April 17, 2009

Falling sick and migraines are back again.

Sweet Memories.

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

YAY!!!! I GOT MY ARCHIVES UP AND RUNNING. You can find previous posts by clicking on the archives on the left under the Reminisce section. Had Sub D Meet today. Haha. Just want to tell all the old people in the NUS Ministry.Wo jia you ge bao!!! Haha I treasure you guys okaaay! Not just calling you guys old for fun haha! Thank God for you guys, for all the time, effort, sweat, blood, tears and sacrifice you guys have put into the ministry to make it what it is today. Soon its time to pass on the baton and I just wanna tell you guys don't worry. It time for the rest to continue on :)))

Love Kat
P.S.Please let the results of the audition be out soon
Please let my contact lens arrive soon. I HATE MY SPECS!!!!

Sweet Memories.

Monday, April 06, 2009

WELCOME WELCOME AND WELCOME AGAIN TO THE UNI-YA SERVICE! Haha although not all of you are moving over yet,it sure is great to see a familiar face or two :) Miss you guys haha! The girls look the same except for the guys who are BALD! Haha dun worry you guys still look the same :) Was looking around before service started, feeling really excited man!!!! Woohoo my juniors all grown up and UNI/NS ready haha brings a tear to my eye XD

Jon Quek aka LM :P

Tim who is hanging to his cap for his dear life, Gavin and Ariel :)))))

Hope you guys come to love the UNI-YA ministry :)

Forging friendships anew whilst making the current ones stronger

Had a great time fellowshipping with Hsiao En, Zhiwei, Hui Qi and Yu Qian! Haha almost forgot what female fellowship in a group feels like. The good old times. Hope that I will be able to make new memories here, memories to fret over, to laugh over and to treasure always. :) Thanks for lightening my load sisters. The table soccer was really addictive. XD See you guys at SMU soon.

Received this today. Seriously, is Singapore so short of guys or does the Navy like me? Haha! Why is it that even when I am in Uni they refuse to let me go? Flipping through its pages there are like minimal girls man I dun wanna be that weirdball that pops out in the mag next time amidst a mountain of guys. Lol may end up looking like one too. Seriously, there's no way a girl in the right frame of mind who is in Uni would decide to join the army haha.

After lunch on Sunday, we spied free candy floss so Wei Wen tried to make some.

Haha but the machine is lousy so we left whilst they were trying to make it work. Haha like they always say, there's no free lunch in the world, apparently no free snacks too ;(((

Push on. There's light at the end of the tunnel :)

Kat

Sweet Memories.