Saturday, March 07, 2009
I just had a lot of musings today:
Holy Discontentment VS RebelliousDisagreement VS DisunityJust had a Sub D meeting on
thursday. I was really thinking to myself. Where the line was drawn
between Disagreement and Disunity? I guess in both cases your motive may be pure but its how you present your views and the spirit you come with that determine which side of the line you fall into. Most of the time, my disagreements arise from a
holy discontentment. Not trying to sound holy here or self righteous but sometimes. I don't understand how we can have a more laid back attitude with our ministry as compared to perhaps our school work. Not judging anyone here but I really wonder sometimes why do we treat the matters of the Kingdom of God lightly? I understand that things take time to change but you have to do something about it right? I don't want to seem rebellious. I really don't. Who wants to? Each time I feel this urge of discontentment I reflect and check my motives. Do I want things done because I feel it is the better way or because I believe that God's Kingdom will benefit more? I am doing it for God, I came to this concluson at the end of much reflection and self questioning.
'Words are cheap actions are deep'. I have no idea what direction we are heading towards. What is our vision? 'Without Vision man will fall.' I believe this with all my heart. So what is our vision? What are we working towards? Do we even feel excitement that
matric is coming? The
harvest is near. So how's our heart
preparation? I yearn to really feel the fire of excitement to save more souls. To see
changed lives, souls saved. I don't want to feel bitterness upon seeing no change, but it is all right to have a laid back attitude and just 'Let nature take its own course'? I am really worried.
I guess my stand for now is to
remain positive (my current resolution). Pray that God will make a way. I don't think
Holy discontentment is a bad thing. It is
something that drives you on in your spiritual walk with God and allows you to grow to even greater height. I feel many lessons to learn from approaching. A time of pruning. It will be painful but I will get through. :) We are all able to be history makers!!! Let us not be restricted by any fear!!!
Onward warriors!!! XDKat mused.
