Sunday, December 07, 2008
I think the fact that I am about to board a plane to Manila tomorrow still hasn't registered in my mind. I do not go with a light heart, it is not a holiday. I am excited yet I am laden with many worries and even perhaps a hint of fear. It is not a good feeling, lying there with a thousand and one things zooming around in your mind. It is worse than having a thousand rabid dogs barking at your gate. There is a way to get rid of them (with much effort of course), but an unsettled heart and mind are not easy to calm. However, thankfully I did not have to spend my night the previous day as such.
My secret to having a good night's sleep? Commit it all to God and having the faith that everything lies in his hands. This was touched upon too in the sermon yesterday. I know not what lies ahead tomorrow, but I know who holds my tomorrow. It is with this faith that I am able to really lay down and rest.
There is so much to prepare for our missions trip, our testimony, the workshop and
MCG we are organising. I am so glad that there are 6 of us going through it together. I really commit our team onto God's hands and pray that we can be a blessing to the people there and take away something from the trip too, to touch the people here.
Attended
HopeKids today, and there was this moment in the service that really saddened me. A portion of the service set aside in remembrance of
Joven. It made me realise how fragile life was. I have seen him before in
Hopekids, but didn't really get the chance to get to know him. I remembered praying as a service for him as he was sick. His life was taken away so suddenly. Even when he was ill, he still attended
Hopekids with his mom. He was the channel which God worked through to bring even his extended family to know Christ. Although his life was short, he made it count. Watching the video they made for him really brought tears to my eyes.
His life was so short. He was so young. God are you sure you know what you are doing? Such thoughts were going through my head. As I sat there, I really thought about these questions.
God then spoke to me. Do you not trust that I am Lord and my plans surpass the understanding of man? I am still God and I know what lies in your tomorrow, trust that I have the best plan for you. Do not doubt.
I was just thinking to myself as I was making my way home, would you give up your life if you could bring your family to know God? That is something worth thinking about. Definitely, you might be thinking maybe
now's not the time, I have so many things that I must complete first,
now's not the time.
Joven was able to use his 7 years, short but meaningful, to help Christ reach out to his family. I believe that this is a feat few of us are able to boast of. It is really not about how long you live, but what you do with the years you have on Earth. If you were to be taken away at the moment in time, what are the things which you would regret leaving behind or undone? Perhaps this is a sign to really start making your life count. Live as if each day was your last. We don't have eternity on earth, why not make you life count? One life, soon will pass, only what is done for Christ will last.
Despite these happenings, I still do believe that God still loves
Joven, its just that this was God's plan for him, the way he wished to used
Joven as a warrior of his Kingdom. It was shared to us that in his last moments he was singing the song that many of us will find familiar.
Jesus loves me this I knowFor the bible tells me soLittle ones to him belongThey are weak but he is strongYes Jesus loves meYes Jesus loves meYes Jesus loves me For the bible tells me soHe did not doubt God. He still believed that God loved him, he did not hold a grudge against God. He is really an individual whom I will remember and be inspired by. I want to have a child-like faith and be a channel for God to work through. May God comfort
Joven's family and bless his soul!
May God bless the missions team.
