Guess who I saw during svc one fine day?! POH CHOON!!!! XD Its great to see another Aj junior :)

Feeling a lot better after a good 11 hours of sleep. Having a day to laze around and just being by yourself is absolutely heaven. Went for a massage and the woman told me my backbone was curved. Uh-oh. Better start carrying back packs and having the good old sitting posture again. Hope it will straighten itself out if that is possible. Still in the rut and still trying to come up with a solution for myself for the problem. I will see how things go and take it in my stride.No point worrying over What-Ifs. I am so over it. All I know is that all it takes is one more pin to be stuck in me before something happens. I love ZYS cuz she is not human.

Just when one wound has almost closed, I have another forming and it just seems to be a string of never ending pain. Does it really have to be like this? Why can't I have a conflict free life God? One which is boring where I can be happy in my own bubble of a world? I guess what I am asking for is ridiculous and impossible. But many a time I have wished for thus.

Perhaps its my own issue. I really do not know how to interact with people. I find it hard to keep myself in check. Going overboard and enjoying it. Words exchanged, fingers burnt and ultimately one heck of a mess of broken relationships to clear. Once the mess is formed, its very difficult for me to try or even bring myself to put the pieces together. It just eats me away bit by bit. I try to divert my attention to other things to numb out the throbbing which leaves me moody, tired and a headache. I know that things need to be resolved but I just can't get over it.

It does not end with one, it continues as the previous hurt gets transmitted into my other interactions and its like a slippery slope. I really want to shut myself up in a place where there is only myself. Better to be alone till I can interact properly with people again. Perhaps not spending as much time with people is better as there is a lesser chance of stepping on toes. I really don't know how to get my perception across and my unique way of doing things.

I think its just me and God you really need to take the wheel. Before I wreck this car of mine. How do you not lose yourself amidst change? I don't know how to do it, to me its two extremes and I don't know how to proceed. The one thing that would most likely take me down into the pits would be conflicts and relationships gone awry. It is something I can't avoid, that's life but I do wonder if it can hurt less.

My mind is like cotton candy now, the kind gone bad and I think a good time of rest is in order before I even think of trying to set things straight and battling the exam monsters.

I commit this verse unto your hands God:

Though you have made me see troubles,
many and bitter,
you will restore my life again;
from the depths of the earth
you will again bring me up.

Psalms 71:20


I hope I get out of this rut, I hate it when I am like this. Moody and all.
I want joy and a peace of mind.
And a conflict free life. I guess that's too much to ask isn't it?

Falling sick and migraines are back again.

YAY!!!! I GOT MY ARCHIVES UP AND RUNNING. You can find previous posts by clicking on the archives on the left under the Reminisce section. Had Sub D Meet today. Haha. Just want to tell all the old people in the NUS Ministry.Wo jia you ge bao!!! Haha I treasure you guys okaaay! Not just calling you guys old for fun haha! Thank God for you guys, for all the time, effort, sweat, blood, tears and sacrifice you guys have put into the ministry to make it what it is today. Soon its time to pass on the baton and I just wanna tell you guys don't worry. It time for the rest to continue on :)))


Love Kat
P.S.Please let the results of the audition be out soon
Please let my contact lens arrive soon. I HATE MY SPECS!!!!

WELCOME WELCOME AND WELCOME AGAIN TO THE UNI-YA SERVICE! Haha although not all of you are moving over yet,it sure is great to see a familiar face or two :) Miss you guys haha! The girls look the same except for the guys who are BALD! Haha dun worry you guys still look the same :) Was looking around before service started, feeling really excited man!!!! Woohoo my juniors all grown up and UNI/NS ready haha brings a tear to my eye XD



Jon Quek aka LM :P



Had a great time fellowshipping with Hsiao En, Zhiwei, Hui Qi and Yu Qian! Haha almost forgot what female fellowship in a group feels like. The good old times. Hope that I will be able to make new memories here, memories to fret over, to laugh over and to treasure always. :) Thanks for lightening my load sisters. The table soccer was really addictive. XD See you guys at SMU soon.





Received this today. Seriously, is Singapore so short of guys or does the Navy like me? Haha! Why is it that even when I am in Uni they refuse to let me go? Flipping through its pages there are like minimal girls man I dun wanna be that weirdball that pops out in the mag next time amidst a mountain of guys. Lol may end up looking like one too. Seriously, there's no way a girl in the right frame of mind who is in Uni would decide to join the army haha.

Mr Quang Ming,my little bowl headed darling from HopeKids lol! He got mistaken as my son OMG! Calls me Nosenose cuz he thinks my nose is sharp and keeps telling me 'you're my mother' Lol! ADORABLE! Haha bribed him with sweets the first time to get him to copy down the sermon points haha! Now he brings his own bible and doesn't need any bribing. Not bad not bad hahaha!






The card and the 2 toy soldiers that camealong with it mistakenly. LOL PLUS B1!!!!!

Thanks to all who who attempted to offer a listening ear in one way or another. I wonder if my emotions are that plain on my face lol. Just had someone ask me if I was feeling alright. I have almost gotten over the issue but I guess the remnants still linger on my face or perhaps its the dark eye circles.... BUT good things start happening when you try to have a positive outlook in life despite feeling in the dumps sometimes.

Had a fun lunch yesterday with weird topics of Lobotomy, Chemical Castration, Pills and Sprays and IMH people. Its amazing how we arrive at the topics and I have realised that I just can't understand some people sometimes. Lol! Jon Lim is the real alien who is not on the wavelength of normal humans. I think he needs to stop his verbal lingo or get lobotomy to get normal folk to understand what he is talking. Okay sign to start reading up more so that I can have intelligent talk over food. Don't have much of a appetite recently haha just a growing fondness of sweet stuff. Craving for Sweet talk and Bailey's n Bourbon ice cream almost everyday is a norm now.

Oh yeah about the good stuff. While walking home yesterday I passed by a loading area for good. I saw.... THE SECURITY GUARD ACTING OUT ULTRAMAN and trying to shoot his partner with imaginary energy discs. I guess its one sign that he is getting a little stressed. Its not everyday you have your 50 year old security guard acting this out in public. Thereafter, I arrived home and when I opened my brother's room. I saw.... HIS CLASSMATES HALF NAKED COMPARING MUSCLES..... Yeah. I was in shock for like 3 secs. Seriously I think the guys were stunned too cuz they froze and forgot to pull down their shirts. Guys...seriously...I think I saw their blush through the dark tans. Don't think they will come back for a visit again. Haha.

Another good things that happened. It was super random but my brother dropped by my room one night and gave me a packet of Famous Amos cookies. Woah!!! Haha shocked by the gesture cuz we don't really buy each other stuff. But touched nonetheless. Thanks. The cookies are in my bag now just as and when I need a sweet fix.

Thanks for everyone who has offered to help out in the issue :) You guys rock! I hope that God will see us through this matter and I am praying. Still am. Have 2 presentations lined up and this week doesn't seem very light after all haha! I need all the energy I can get so will be conserving my energy. Eating more sweet stuff would help. GOD you ROCK, or rather you ARE MY ROCK.

Oh went for my massage yesterday. XD The late night and carrying of my laptop gave me sore shoulders. Amazing, I must proclaim the greatest invention. The heated mattress thingy put on the massage bed. I wanna get it one day haha! Its oh so comfortable and comforting. Makes me wanna snuggle and sleep and not get up EVER! Other than physical therapy, I need to have spiritual therapy too haha! Solve the root of the issue.

As I have been going through this period of time, one song which has really perked my spirits up is the song 'The Climb' by Miley Cyrus. The lyrics are really meaningful and encouraging.

Name: Katarina Low
Age: 18
Birthday: 24 Nov 1989
School: SMPS, Anderson Sec'04, AJC 24/06, NUS
Affiliations: Hope Church Singapore, AJChoir
All about you:I love to EAT!
I love to sing. I am misunderstood. I LOVE GOD!!!
I have a 'to kill' list and a 'must kill' list.

To live each day as if it was my last
To grow in God
To have a child-like faith
For the Kuku and Mighty Alliance to last FOREVER
Buffets
Sinful Food
To have friends who can cook well
For my eye bags to DISappear
Shopping
More karaoke sessions
To have an exciting life


Bestie:
Huiying Yueh

Blogs I came across:
Ashton
Jerlyn
Jie Hui
Jiexun
Jon Lwee
JonPaulFoo
Jon Tay
Limin
LIting
Rayson
Saffie
Seng Kim
Shawn
Song Jun
Tracee
Zhiwei


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