A glimpse of Kat's life

ZYS

2009-05-05T17:40:00.006+08:00

Since I am feeling sleepy now, I shall blog about ZYS's antics at the exam HQ. BTW she has a facebook acct now.Please add her at Zhang Yu Shao. NOw pics pics and pics :) Enjoy

Bridal wear courtesy of Jie Hui

That's Shaun's minature Jesus figurine.

Swee Leong's shirt matches ZYS!!!

Now the other soft toys of the CG NUSS1!!!! Xiao Ding Dang, Cookie Monster, Bui Bui, Gou Zei and Nuah Nuah. Check them out on Facebook!

This is Bian Fu Xiong!

Fighting!!!!

Shot with Cookie Monster

Attending a PnW together.

Tau POk!!! BUI BUI is squashed.

ZYS's on top!!!

ZYS trying to be a wig.

That's all folks!!! XD

2009-05-05T15:03:00.004+08:00

Guess who I saw during svc one fine day?! POH CHOON!!!! XD Its great to see another Aj junior :)

WOOHOO! What's better than a life without crap? A life where the crap gets cleared up. Lol of course there are some conflicts that haven't been resolved yet but its all in God's time. Lets hope it comes soon. Really glad that I was able to survive through this issue and come out stronger. :) Went to play 3 hours of arcade with my CG after that.We even took neoprints! Haha! It was the first time for most of the guys. Interesting. Its real sad that restructure is coming after we started to grow closer and have fun together. :( I shall really enjoy our last CG together!

Neoprint!!!!

I designed this print.Sorry bout your face Zhen Zhong haha! I ran out of time to erase the burgers. :(

Vic drew the eye brow.... and I think he looks like a milkmaid lol!

Arcade CG

Arcade CG!!!

Posing with the machine

Went for Hopekids this Sunday and it was great!!! Loads of funny things happened. First some kids came over to me and asked me if I was a mother... I was like NOOOOOO!!!!! Seriously I don't look that old righhhht. Cheez. We taught the kids the moves for the Mother's Day item next week. We are dancing to "Jesus you're my superhero"!!!! Haha it was really fun. Played some catching with the kids after tt and at the end of it, Jon Tay's cousin proceeded to lift me off the ground with her arms.... It was scary hahhaa! She's either real strong or I'm too light. Thereafter, all the girls tried to lift me or rather parts of me like my leg and stuff.

Really glad that I have grown closer to most of the children in the ministry :))) Will continue to serve happily in the ministry. Hope to touch the little lives! My dear Quang Ming brought a pair of binoculars to service on Sunday. Here it is:

He keeps telling me: You're my mother! Lol sure kiddos! Does that mean I get a Mother's Day gift next Sunday? XD

My papers were not really that bad but not really that good. Having my last paper tomorrow. Just completed Genes and Society today. I really felt very sleepy throughout the entire paper. 100 MCQs kill me please... I fell asleep 2 times whereby I closed my eyes to process the question. I completed the paper and left 1/2 hour earlier cuz there was no point staying on. Either you know the ans or you don't haha! Thank God for the lollipop in my pencil box.It helped me to stay awake for the last portion of my paper. I don't know how I will do this sem but please let me push it up to 4? Please GOD!!!!!! LOL

Just received news today! I am doing back up singing for the UNI-YA Camp. Exciting! Hope that I don't commit any booboos... Better start taking care of my voice :)

Feeling a wee bit better

2009-04-30T21:08:00.002+08:00

Feeling a lot better after a good 11 hours of sleep. Having a day to laze around and just being by yourself is absolutely heaven. Went for a massage and the woman told me my backbone was curved. Uh-oh. Better start carrying back packs and having the good old sitting posture again. Hope it will straighten itself out if that is possible. Still in the rut and still trying to come up with a solution for myself for the problem. I will see how things go and take it in my stride.No point worrying over What-Ifs. I am so over it. All I know is that all it takes is one more pin to be stuck in me before something happens. I love ZYS cuz she is not human.

2009-04-29T22:57:00.002+08:00

Just when one wound has almost closed, I have another forming and it just seems to be a string of never ending pain. Does it really have to be like this? Why can't I have a conflict free life God? One which is boring where I can be happy in my own bubble of a world? I guess what I am asking for is ridiculous and impossible. But many a time I have wished for thus.

Perhaps its my own issue. I really do not know how to interact with people. I find it hard to keep myself in check. Going overboard and enjoying it. Words exchanged, fingers burnt and ultimately one heck of a mess of broken relationships to clear. Once the mess is formed, its very difficult for me to try or even bring myself to put the pieces together. It just eats me away bit by bit. I try to divert my attention to other things to numb out the throbbing which leaves me moody, tired and a headache. I know that things need to be resolved but I just can't get over it.

It does not end with one, it continues as the previous hurt gets transmitted into my other interactions and its like a slippery slope. I really want to shut myself up in a place where there is only myself. Better to be alone till I can interact properly with people again. Perhaps not spending as much time with people is better as there is a lesser chance of stepping on toes. I really don't know how to get my perception across and my unique way of doing things.

I think its just me and God you really need to take the wheel. Before I wreck this car of mine. How do you not lose yourself amidst change? I don't know how to do it, to me its two extremes and I don't know how to proceed. The one thing that would most likely take me down into the pits would be conflicts and relationships gone awry. It is something I can't avoid, that's life but I do wonder if it can hurt less.

My mind is like cotton candy now, the kind gone bad and I think a good time of rest is in order before I even think of trying to set things straight and battling the exam monsters.

I commit this verse unto your hands God:

Though you have made me see troubles,
many and bitter,
you will restore my life again;
from the depths of the earth
you will again bring me up.

Psalms 71:20

I hope I get out of this rut, I hate it when I am like this. Moody and all.
I want joy and a peace of mind.
And a conflict free life. I guess that's too much to ask isn't it?

sick

2009-04-17T20:31:00.000+08:00

Falling sick and migraines are back again.

Wo jia you ge bao

2009-04-07T23:34:00.002+08:00

YAY!!!! I GOT MY ARCHIVES UP AND RUNNING. You can find previous posts by clicking on the archives on the left under the Reminisce section. Had Sub D Meet today. Haha. Just want to tell all the old people in the NUS Ministry.Wo jia you ge bao!!! Haha I treasure you guys okaaay! Not just calling you guys old for fun haha! Thank God for you guys, for all the time, effort, sweat, blood, tears and sacrifice you guys have put into the ministry to make it what it is today. Soon its time to pass on the baton and I just wanna tell you guys don't worry. It time for the rest to continue on :)))

Love Kat
P.S.Please let the results of the audition be out soon
Please let my contact lens arrive soon. I HATE MY SPECS!!!!

Welcome

2009-04-06T22:55:00.003+08:00

WELCOME WELCOME AND WELCOME AGAIN TO THE UNI-YA SERVICE! Haha although not all of you are moving over yet,it sure is great to see a familiar face or two :) Miss you guys haha! The girls look the same except for the guys who are BALD! Haha dun worry you guys still look the same :) Was looking around before service started, feeling really excited man!!!! Woohoo my juniors all grown up and UNI/NS ready haha brings a tear to my eye XD

Jon Quek aka LM :P

Tim who is hanging to his cap for his dear life, Gavin and Ariel :)))))

Hope you guys come to love the UNI-YA ministry :)

Forging friendships anew whilst making the current ones stronger

Had a great time fellowshipping with Hsiao En, Zhiwei, Hui Qi and Yu Qian! Haha almost forgot what female fellowship in a group feels like. The good old times. Hope that I will be able to make new memories here, memories to fret over, to laugh over and to treasure always. :) Thanks for lightening my load sisters. The table soccer was really addictive. XD See you guys at SMU soon.

Received this today. Seriously, is Singapore so short of guys or does the Navy like me? Haha! Why is it that even when I am in Uni they refuse to let me go? Flipping through its pages there are like minimal girls man I dun wanna be that weirdball that pops out in the mag next time amidst a mountain of guys. Lol may end up looking like one too. Seriously, there's no way a girl in the right frame of mind who is in Uni would decide to join the army haha.

After lunch on Sunday, we spied free candy floss so Wei Wen tried to make some.

Haha but the machine is lousy so we left whilst they were trying to make it work. Haha like they always say, there's no free lunch in the world, apparently no free snacks too ;(((

Push on. There's light at the end of the tunnel :)

Kat

More good things

2009-03-31T23:56:00.003+08:00

Mr Quang Ming,my little bowl headed darling from HopeKids lol! He got mistaken as my son OMG! Calls me Nosenose cuz he thinks my nose is sharp and keeps telling me 'you're my mother' Lol! ADORABLE! Haha bribed him with sweets the first time to get him to copy down the sermon points haha! Now he brings his own bible and doesn't need any bribing. Not bad not bad hahaha!

Funny face shot! :)

Kids,one of the things which brighten up your day no matter how tiring and bad it may have been. My silver lining :)

Another good thing which happened today! My long awaited Birthday/Christmas/New Year card from Mr SOH WEE KEONG. Took you long enough haha but since you put effort into making the card I forgive you haha! Kudos for the design but still can't believed you spelled Matthew wrongly tsk tsk...

The card and the 2 toy soldiers that camealong with it mistakenly. LOL PLUS B1!!!!!

B1!

B1 the hooded bear sleeping XD

Lol I picked him up at the NUS flea market. He cost me $8.90. Its a little ex but its for a good cause. He was crocheted by the disabled. By buying one of the creations, you are able to not only help the needy but also promote creative works :) Do visit http://www.teddythotz.com/ to support this cause :) You get something cute which is meaningful! Stop buying fast food and start buying one of these and blessing someone with it or you can buy it for yourself!

B1 is real comforting to have around haha actually all soft toys are. He is less eye catching than Zhangyushao so shall be bringing him to school instead. Try to spot him when you see me :) My superhero! Bian fu xiong!

Thanks to all

2009-03-31T14:02:00.002+08:00

Thanks to all who who attempted to offer a listening ear in one way or another. I wonder if my emotions are that plain on my face lol. Just had someone ask me if I was feeling alright. I have almost gotten over the issue but I guess the remnants still linger on my face or perhaps its the dark eye circles.... BUT good things start happening when you try to have a positive outlook in life despite feeling in the dumps sometimes.

Had a fun lunch yesterday with weird topics of Lobotomy, Chemical Castration, Pills and Sprays and IMH people. Its amazing how we arrive at the topics and I have realised that I just can't understand some people sometimes. Lol! Jon Lim is the real alien who is not on the wavelength of normal humans. I think he needs to stop his verbal lingo or get lobotomy to get normal folk to understand what he is talking. Okay sign to start reading up more so that I can have intelligent talk over food. Don't have much of a appetite recently haha just a growing fondness of sweet stuff. Craving for Sweet talk and Bailey's n Bourbon ice cream almost everyday is a norm now.

Oh yeah about the good stuff. While walking home yesterday I passed by a loading area for good. I saw.... THE SECURITY GUARD ACTING OUT ULTRAMAN and trying to shoot his partner with imaginary energy discs. I guess its one sign that he is getting a little stressed. Its not everyday you have your 50 year old security guard acting this out in public. Thereafter, I arrived home and when I opened my brother's room. I saw.... HIS CLASSMATES HALF NAKED COMPARING MUSCLES..... Yeah. I was in shock for like 3 secs. Seriously I think the guys were stunned too cuz they froze and forgot to pull down their shirts. Guys...seriously...I think I saw their blush through the dark tans. Don't think they will come back for a visit again. Haha.

Another good things that happened. It was super random but my brother dropped by my room one night and gave me a packet of Famous Amos cookies. Woah!!! Haha shocked by the gesture cuz we don't really buy each other stuff. But touched nonetheless. Thanks. The cookies are in my bag now just as and when I need a sweet fix.

Thanks for everyone who has offered to help out in the issue :) You guys rock! I hope that God will see us through this matter and I am praying. Still am. Have 2 presentations lined up and this week doesn't seem very light after all haha! I need all the energy I can get so will be conserving my energy. Eating more sweet stuff would help. GOD you ROCK, or rather you ARE MY ROCK.

Oh went for my massage yesterday. XD The late night and carrying of my laptop gave me sore shoulders. Amazing, I must proclaim the greatest invention. The heated mattress thingy put on the massage bed. I wanna get it one day haha! Its oh so comfortable and comforting. Makes me wanna snuggle and sleep and not get up EVER! Other than physical therapy, I need to have spiritual therapy too haha! Solve the root of the issue.

As I have been going through this period of time, one song which has really perked my spirits up is the song 'The Climb' by Miley Cyrus. The lyrics are really meaningful and encouraging.

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying

"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down

But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most, yeah

Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing

Keep the faith, baby

It's all about, it's all about the climb

Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

What is the mountain(s) in your life you have to climb and where do you draw your strength forth from?

Love Kat

P.S. Will upload photos soon.

Got a new addition to my family of soft toys.

B1 will make its appearence soon :)

The truth

2009-03-29T00:42:00.002+08:00

Today was a real taxing day for me. These past few weeks have really been ones of mental turmoil which have really worn me out. Each and everyday I have been praying for something to happen for God to move.I have utmost trust that he will move,I am just hoping that he will do it soon. It was today that things took a turn for the worse and I really felt like giving up. Facing this issue with Victor and ZZ as we sat at Macs, got things off my chest, but the issue still remains.

That and other stuff made me further realize the truth about myself. I do not like people. I do not like being around people all the time. Shopping, eating or even spending the entire day by myself is perfectly fine by me. Some people may not be comfortable with the idea of doing that, but I have really enjoyed the alone moments. But the truth is, a Christian's life should not be spent alone. Sad but true. With each friendship you invest in sometimes, you are hurt or perhaps face rejection. Sometimes I wonder am I an IDIOT? A major MORON who has nothing else better to do? Why the heck am I still continuing on doing what I do?

Today I received a word. He is the potter and I am the clay and God is really putting me through the furnace now as he is moulding me. I hope that I do not break. I really don't want to. All the good things that have been happening lately keeps getting overshadowed by this issue and it really bugs me. How long? I often wonder. Is there no easier way out?

Kat is just tired. But hopeful nonetheless.

Shagged

2009-03-24T10:42:00.002+08:00

Been really tired lately but I think I have reached to new heights of productivity. Haha I don't know why but when you have more time, you tend to accomplish less. Procrastination suddenly becomes the new IN! Well, I hope that hectic weeks will come to an end soon. Its my 3rd Hectic week in a row now and the workload for each week is like a constant crescendo.

When I am tired and stressed, I tend to develop a liking for sweet stuff. Rewarding myself in food terms becomes a norm! Had Baileys and Bourbon at Udders again, before popping a doughnut from Raffles Shopping Centre. I simply love doughnuts which have loads of chocolate or cream on the outside and inside! Haha I can eat 6 without batting an eyelid. Yummy!

What would you do when things don't go your way, they don't turn out the way you expect and you wonder what the heck am I going to do now. Lol if I felt that I have done my best already, I will sleep on it and leave it up to the Big Man. Wake up and continue trudging down this never ending path.

I have suddenly developed a liking for neutral colours which I used to shun in the past. Have been filling my wardrobe and wearing my pieces of blacks, greys and whites. Haha! Going through another phase I suppose haha reflects my emotions now. Too tired to feel anything haha! I hope holidays come soon! I wanna go overseas and enjoy myself, temporarily putting away my responsibilities in Singapore.

My own personal retreat. I don't even mind travelling overseas alone haha! Perhaps I shall retreat to Hong Kong and shop all day! LOL! Wake up at 12pm and have half price dim sum at 2pm. Shop at my fav hangouts Mong Kok and Yuen Long. Eat steamboat buffet dinner till 1am then retreat back home to sleep. Haha the cool air there truly does your face some good. iI didn't even have a single outbreak over there, but it may be due to the low levels of stress I experience there all the same.

All you stressed out souls out there! Do remember to take a breather and give yourself some TLC. Remember "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Turn to the Big Man.

Kat is Tired (Squeezed Kat)

Godly Perspective

2009-03-15T00:37:00.002+08:00

Looking at things from a Godly perspective. I shall magnify God and not my problems. With God all things are possible, so I don't have to worry so much :) What a great sermon today. Really spoke to me volumes. Enjoyed helping out at the Hopekids Ripple Conference after. I don't feel as tired as I thought I would be, I feel energized. but my dark eye circles are telling so I am off to sleep now :) Goodnight Folks!

Loving the Mickey Mouse modules on my braces XD

Headache

2009-03-14T00:22:00.002+08:00

My dear friend. You have made me speechless. Its so discouraging sometimes. "I wonder if the work of my hands mean nothing at all..." How true, my sentiments exactly. Doesn't matter how much effort I make does it? Too tired to think about it at 12am. SERIOUSLY. SPEECHLESS.

Kat is very discouraged

News!!!!

2009-03-12T19:59:00.003+08:00

Woohoo loads to report on! This is news on KatTV concerning a certain individual called Kat's life! Firstly... my masks I ordered online arrived!!!!! Woohoo I bought 5 white and 5 black Shiseido masks! Before you label me as a spendthrift, they are one dollar per pc only plus with 10 pieces I get free postage so actually I am smart shopper lol :) As I am typing, I am trying the black one now haha! Shall review it after I peel it off. It removes black heads, white heads, unwanted facial hair (hmm... what if you apply it on your eyebrows? Will they come off LOL XD). It lightens dark spots, pimple marks and scars on your face. That's what the product description says haha but we shall see.

The masks :)

Don't you miss Zhangyushao?

Second piece of news. My younger brother decided to go to church lol! Somehow or another both of my younger brothers have come to know Christ in 2009. Woohoo! God is great! Went to Bras Basah to help follow up Ming Xi today and I decided to buy the assessments for my brother which is long overdue. Although his math has been improving, got 21/30 for his last test. An admirable feat. ( guess who tutored him XD) His science grades leave much to be desired. So I took it upon myself to devote more time to his studies haha not my own lol! I find myself playing a dual role in my brothers' lives, as a sister with the responsibilities of a mother. Not that I am complaining, many valuable lessons and experiences I have gleaned. You grow up a lot faster. While waiting for Ming Xi and Guan Zhen, I saw Tecman and I thought why not? LOL got him a bible as a reward for his improvement in Math and a book for New Believers which would come later on. For those who think I don't manage my finances, haha this is where my money disappears to also okay! LOL! To bless people hahaha!

The bible I bought

A note to him

Great time talking to Guan Zhen and Ming Xi. When you put 3 normal girls together, the convo will never end lol! There is so much to talk about under the Sun, and I am not even counting God yet. Haa! Tonight's the night to complete a round up for my test on Science of Music tomorrow. O yeah and i got pink mickey mouse modules for braces today LOL! Amazing!

Kat was here :)

Tuning the horror

2009-03-12T10:34:00.002+08:00

Attempted to play some soothing music on the guitar with my fingers which are now non callused from lack of practice haha! My brother broke one string and had it restrung today. I think he is tone deaf lol! It was totally out of tune and he had apparently tuned it. I attempted to tune the guitar myself with my trust elec guitar tuner courtesy of Mr R. Thanks! Its still working fine even after 3 years haha!

The guitar was driving me insane as although it was tuned according to the tuner, it still sounded out of tune. It was quite depressing as this dragged on till 1am... Finally, I realised what the matter was. The tuner... I think my brother tinkered with it in an attempt to tune the guitar and he had changed the key of the tuner to F... After I changed it back to C, the issue was resolved. I finally mastered 'Blessed be the Name' Yippee! Bad music gets me depressed so haha playing the song made me real happy and I didn't sleep till 2am. I shall make it a note to keep to my New year resolution and start spending more time with the guitar of mine who has the initials C.M. XD Named after my fav Jap male singer.

Ooo and the masks I ordered online just arrived! Extra reasons to be happy! :)

Cleared

2009-03-12T01:27:00.002+08:00

Yay I have finally cleared things up as a follow on to my previous post. Really glad to have been given the chance to talk it out with the person. I now realize the extent of a foul mood I can get into when factors all come into play. Tiredness, stress ... ... . Not a good result at all. I think that issues should be settled with the person himself, and not just brood and speculate about it. I believe tt's one of the pitfalls we all face in our lives, not clarifying but assuming. Thus one of the principles I have come to adopt is to hear the person out and give him a fair chance to defend himself/herself. However, I am really growing in this aspect too, because in certain incidents it is very difficult to go to the person and really talk openly, especially if we had previous conflicts, don't know each other very well or I simply don't know how to approach the topic. I will and must grow. Hopefully let lesser things bug me :) I shall stay positive with peace and joy flooding tis' soul o mine. Haha ever since I have taken to reading English literature, I feel like communicating in Old English too! XD

CG today was great, we had it at SMU. I really thank God or how much my CG has grown, in numbers, in maturity, spiritually, in openness in the family warmth. :) Too much to list and thank God. I really commit each and every single one of my dear brothers and sisters onto the hands of God. May each of their fears be put to rest by God, any issues at hand settled together with God and may they live each day with great joy, peace and the love for God!!!

I shared a verse during praise today

1 I will extol the LORD at all times;
his praise will always be on my lips.
2 My soul will boast in the LORD;
let the afflicted hear and rejoice.
3 Glorify the LORD with me;
let us exalt his name together.
4 I sought the LORD, and he answered me;
he delivered me from all my fears.
5 Those who look to him are radiant;
their faces are never covered with shame.

Psalms 34:1-5

We should always praise the Lord! Be it in good times or bad times, peaceful times or stressful times :) When we are able to praise the Lord even though circumstances may be against us, we will be able to find joy and persevere on through the tough times :) Seek him when you are sad or lost and he will be with you! I was greatly encouraged by this verse and even though my week is very hectic, I am still able to find joy. There may be hiccups here and there, but I will stay strong and rooted to the word!

After CG, we went to 'Screme (issit?!) in SMU too. The meat lover's pizza was fantastic! 2 thumbs up! The oreo milkshake was insane!!! 3 scoops of vanilla ice cream! Haha when i was waiting for my drink the guy at the bar offered me some beer lol. Its not like I am an alcoholic or anything but it was really good. Its a fruity type of beer imported from Germany and is selling at special price of 16 dollars for 2 bottles so do go grab them if you want a drink that is light and I think has very little alcoholic content. Toasted Gui Xiong and Johanna who got free samples too haha! Too good health I say! XD I am starting to love SMU lol! The eatery even had pool tables and wii! I attempted to conquer guitar hero with Johanna but sadly failed... I shall try again next time hahahaha!

Great day but...

2009-03-11T00:50:00.003+08:00

Yay for this post i really want to give thanks to God!!!

Note to God:

Dear God,
thank you for keeping me clear headed today during my presentation! It would not have gone so well without you :) Thank you for allowing my brain to program quickly to answer the tutor's questions. I simply loved the adrenaline rush of enjoying a presentation. Thank you for helping my brain to warm up and shake of the holiday mood. I was able to cover so much material today, finished studying for my mid term on Friday and loads of work.

Love Kat :)

Things were really looking great this afternoon. But as the night came I started lapsing into a state of frustration. I REALLY Really really dislike last minute stuff and lateness. It may be impatience or due to my personality, but can you honestly tell me you are perfectly okay with those two things above? I personally think once or twice is understandable due to traffic jams and stuff, but Almost ALL the time?! It is really getting out of hand, you are really telling me that you do not place much importance upon the issue. Are you telling me that the effort I am required to put in and the time spent is not worth much too? Show me some sincerity and change please. I am really getting very tired of it. Letting the bomb drop at 12am is truly the ultimatum (makes me feel like banging my head on my desktop). We are all students with tight schedules, if we plan our time well I sincerely, truly, honestly believe with all my heart that the matter would not have dragged till 12am or on a short notice. Be understanding ... good-spirited yes, please help me understand why are you doing things the way you do? Show me that you are attempting to change?

Kat is on a short fuse with lack of sleep and many things to settle...
May tomorrow be a better day.
Let tonight be filled with peace. Think positive.

Busy busy busy

2009-03-10T11:04:00.003+08:00

This is going to be a very very busy week. Pray that I might be able to remain sane. With 3 projects, one midterm up this week, ripple conference on Saturday and tuition on Sunday, the week sometime passes too quickly. The just slips out of your fingers and before you know it, another week has passed. I pray that I might stay focused and at the same time make the most out of the little time I have for leisure. Going for a movie 'Slumdog Millionare' (heard rave reviews for it, let's hope that its as good as they make it out to be. I need it. ) this wed with my sheeep. Looking forward to it. Would be a good chance to spend time and to rest a lil'. Feel that the stress is going to erode my weight again. Better watch my food and salt intake. :) I am going to stay calm this week and have peace and joy no matter what people say or how they act. My nerves are my own and no one is to get on them! XD

Verse of the day:

22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

Galatians 5:22-23

Kat wants joy and peace. :)

FUN!!!

2009-03-08T22:44:00.006+08:00

This is a rainbow as many of you guys know, but do you know the significance of a rainbow? It first appeared in the bible after God sent a terrible flood to rid the world of the sinful human beings, leaving only Noah, his family and his ark which contained the world's animals. After the flood, Noah looked up to the sky and saw a rainbow. It was a symbol of God's covenant (promise) with us. That he would never allow such a catastrophe upon human kind ever again. For me when I saw it after service on Saturday, it was God's confirmation to me of his promises and all the things I have prayed for.

I received a word on Saturday loud and clear. "Submission". Questions fill my mind, but at the end of the day we have to submit to God given authority on earth. I have finally reached a con census with God and myself, which is really less stressful for me mentally. Even though I may disagree at times, get angry and impatient, I will still submit. that's my covenant with God. it will not be easy given my character, but with God all things are possible.

The rainbow :)

After service, with a strange and interesting turn of events, Me, Nettie and Bentay ended up fellowshipping the night away together on what I deem to be "Bentay's Night Safari Trip". First stop was Udders, next to United Square which i mentioned in my previous post. Again I had Bailey's and Bourbon. Fantastic stuff. I really liked the ambience there, so did the rest. Would love to have my own home in Novena too in the future if I should move out. :) Peaceful neighbourhood, just be cautious of dangerous banglas lurking behind your homes.... After we left Udders, we went to Bentay's house to collect his car! A car IS very useful and important so guys please go learn and you will be able to have interesting outings and send your fellow sisters home hahaha!

Bailey's and Bourbon

It is good!!! Ooops unglam pic of my sheep. Do tell me if you want me to crop you out Nettie!!!

It went crazy after Udders. We went to eat Bak Kut Teh at holland V (I think) haha I can feel myself increase in fat content lol! It wasn't as good as the one near my house, but the soup was not bad. On our way to Dempsey, Bentay's car kissed the one in front of him. I was super horrified before the cars had contact and when the cars touched, it was sorta like a bumper car feeling. please guys don't tailgate! The cost incurred is not worth it. Thank God that no one was hurt and Bentay's car was unscathed.

Now onward to Dempsey. Always wondered where the rich hung out! Haha it looks scary at night and we had fun talking to parrots, hunting toads and spying on a Girca Camp.(Is it spelt like that?) haha they sound like scary rambo warriors from what Nettie and Bentay described... Hope I don't ever meet one.

Hail Mao Zedong!

The intelligent parrots

Just a lil somthing for you readers haha! Its a lil loud so you might want to turn down your speakers. But then again you might not be able to hear the parrots talking. XD

After getting 4 hours of sleep, I dragged myself to Hopekids again. And I am now finally a registered volunteer at Hopekids!!! :) Look at my name tag!!!! Haha its a Hopekids Pod

Front

Back

Hopekids was great as usual today! Enjoyed praising God with the kidshaha! Actions are always fun! Met new and old kids today. Had a great time playing games with my CG and hearing how their week has been. :))) It was great!

MayAnn (spy my tired eyes!)

Darren eating a cracker

Spy him being greedy! Cracker in one hand and taking sweets with the other tsk tsk... LOL

Yay!!!!

Picking his nose lol! All kids like to do tt...

Cute Timothy!

Asked him to give me his biggest eyed lol!

Enjoy the post. Love Kat

Musings

2009-03-07T00:43:00.003+08:00

I just had a lot of musings today:

Holy Discontentment VS Rebellious
Disagreement VS Disunity

Just had a Sub D meeting on thursday. I was really thinking to myself. Where the line was drawn between Disagreement and Disunity? I guess in both cases your motive may be pure but its how you present your views and the spirit you come with that determine which side of the line you fall into. Most of the time, my disagreements arise from a holy discontentment. Not trying to sound holy here or self righteous but sometimes. I don't understand how we can have a more laid back attitude with our ministry as compared to perhaps our school work. Not judging anyone here but I really wonder sometimes why do we treat the matters of the Kingdom of God lightly? I understand that things take time to change but you have to do something about it right? I don't want to seem rebellious. I really don't. Who wants to? Each time I feel this urge of discontentment I reflect and check my motives. Do I want things done because I feel it is the better way or because I believe that God's Kingdom will benefit more? I am doing it for God, I came to this concluson at the end of much reflection and self questioning.

'Words are cheap actions are deep'. I have no idea what direction we are heading towards. What is our vision? 'Without Vision man will fall.' I believe this with all my heart. So what is our vision? What are we working towards? Do we even feel excitement that matric is coming? The harvest is near. So how's our heart preparation? I yearn to really feel the fire of excitement to save more souls. To see changed lives, souls saved. I don't want to feel bitterness upon seeing no change, but it is all right to have a laid back attitude and just 'Let nature take its own course'? I am really worried.

I guess my stand for now is to remain positive (my current resolution). Pray that God will make a way. I don't think Holy discontentment is a bad thing. It is something that drives you on in your spiritual walk with God and allows you to grow to even greater height. I feel many lessons to learn from approaching. A time of pruning. It will be painful but I will get through. :) We are all able to be history makers!!! Let us not be restricted by any fear!!! Onward warriors!!! XD

Kat mused.

Music Spam

2009-03-05T23:04:00.002+08:00

I have been spamming myself with music all day, deciding the genre I should go with in my midi song composing. Orchestra? Too complex! Heavy Metal? The drum beats along will kill me, not to mention the elec guitar! I think I shall stick with something light and constantly add more instruments to find the perfect combination. I shall stick to the genre of haunting and enchanting music.

I have been able to spam myself with music with the aid of my trusty mp3 player. I have never been a fan of apple, never felt the need to buy apple products. They are too fragile for my tastes haha! I have dropped my samsung countless of times, but its still good. Not to mention its multifunctionality. I simply love products like these. It not only acts as a mp3 player, it is also equipped with a voice recorder, able to connect to a radio station and the greatest ability of all to store data. It has a USB at its end, makes it super convenient to plug into a computer. I love it!!! Haha just discovered its radio capabilities a while ago and I have it for already over 2 years lol! Yes! I know I am slow.

My new love: Samsung YP-U2 XD

Amidst my spamming of music via 98.7fm, I found many great songs! One that got stuck in my head was the song 'Unbeautiful' by Lesley Roy! Do listen to it for its honest lyrics, heartfelt singing and finally the great voic behind the song. Don't think I can create something like this just as yet haha! BUT! I shall try my best at creating my own music composition now. Do tell me if you have any expertise in his area. God knows I need the help! :)

Yay today marks the end of hell part 1. Haha its nearly the end of the week! Yay! But more tests presentations and projects and tutorials and reflections and programming and Hopekids to come lol! I am getting worried and scared even as I typed the whole jinggang of words just now. Nevermind its ok! God is with e lol!

All the best for the week ahead people!
Love Kat

2009-03-04T14:42:00.002+08:00

What do you do when you are stress? You do meaningless things to fantasize that you are free from the clutches of work. Like for instance : doing a survey haha! Found this when I was blog surfing and it looked quite interesting.

The Five Love Languages

My primary love languages are probably
Acts of Service and Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Acts of Service:		7
Quality Time:		7
Words of Affirmation:		7
Receiving Gifts:		5
Physical Touch:		4

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

Interesting aint it? How we all have two eyes, one nose one mouth, 4 limbs etc etc... ... as my sheep has once said and yet we are all different and unique in our own ways. Our love of languages differ too haha and I guess that may play a role whether big or small when we build friendships and relationships. I guess God added this to spice up our lives a little and make his viewing from heaven more interesting.

Words of affirmation was my love language in the past haha but I guess I have come to realise and internalize the fact that 'Words are cheap and actions are deep'. Isn't it interesting how our character traits, habits, love languages or even spiritual giftings differ with circumstances and experiences we are put through? Each of our lives is like a show and its up to us whether we end up in a happy ending or tragedy. :)

Okay time to get back to work.

Dead Tired

2009-03-04T00:00:00.002+08:00

It is 12am and I am not asleep yet. I am dead tired. I repeat DEAD TIRED. I still have assignments to rush. Zzzzzz... There are so many deadlines looming over me, so many responsibilities. I cannot wait to throw them off one by one... Projects, Tutorials, Mid Terms and Programming. Each takes a part of my time away. God save me!

Cast all your anxiety on god because he cares for you.

1 Peter 5:7

Amen.

Huiying's Birthday!

2009-03-03T10:32:00.006+08:00

This post is to commemorate the birthday of a loved one! Ms YUEH HUIYING (aka my spiritual buddy). We celebrated her 20th last friday. Haha you are the first to hit 20! Getting old eh? It will be my turn in like 8 more months! You better start looking around soon girl haha before you start panicking when you hit 25 lol!

We had 2 stops! First was Spizza at Balmoral Plaza! I am not a fan of pizza, rather have a leg of lamb or chicken. BUT! I may say that it is indeed one of the best pizzas I have ever eaten. The menu itself is interesting cuz all the dishes are named after ladies! Where they got the names from,I have no idea haha! Perhaps its random or the names of the ex-girlfriends the owner had haha! (Then it must be a lot! Haha Over 50+) Its 17 bucks for a medium sized pizza and 21 bucks for a large one. We ordered 3: Ursula, Tara and Sofia. The pizzas were FANTASTIC! Haha I think I can finish off 1 large pizza all by myself. My personal favorite is Tara! The meat and button mushrooms are very good combination. The salmon and spinach on Ursula tastes very refreshing and healthy! Sofia was just okay in my opinion.Hey when you are hungry everything would probably taste very good right?

Haha and on the menu I spied a pizza named 'Katerina' lol! (someone mentioned that it would taste bad... -_-) It has loads of meat in it and I hope to try it one day! Bet it would taste good!) Just in case you guys are interested, they offer home delivery service too and here is the link for the menu! I think the pizzas are worth its weight in gold.

http://www.spizza.sg/delivery.asp

I think Cai was doing something weird when I made this face.

The ambience there is not bad, my only complain is the heat in the outlet. It is housed in a open air concept, with fans and air cons to cool its patrons down but it was a tad too hot for my tastes on a humid night. There was a live performance by a guy lol singing and playing his guitar. Not bad haha but was sadly overtaken by an over enthusiastic kid from the crowd who sang and played on the piano beside him haha!

We got 6 mini cakes for Huiying yes you heard me right 6 CAKES!!!! It was really creative, kudos to Mavis and we had a good time eating the cakes.

The birthday girl and her cakes!

Our next stop was Udders located beside United Square. I must say that I am turning into quite an alcohol appreciator haha! I thought that the alcoholic creations were really good.Bailey's and Bourbon & Rum Rum Raisin are my personal favorites. Don't really like the Green Tea there, its too creamy and not bitter enough for my tastes. I really like the place cuz you get to leave your own mark in the shop. They put up black acrylic boards at one side of the shop for you to leave your msgs.

Group shot!

Haha I think I stood a tad too near to the camera

What you would look like if you are stoning or have your cheeks ful lat a buffet :)

New flavour invented by me! Green vege!

Mighty Alliance

Cai

Mavis

We left our mark

How can I leave out ZYS? LOL XD

Yummy creation! You may want to try it soon:)

Love,Kat

Joyful Day

2009-03-01T21:37:00.003+08:00

This post marks a joyful day! Haha! Well it started from last night. Walked with Sher Li and nettie along Orchard Road chatting about random stuffs ahaha, was quite an interesting and funny talk that left me gasping for air in between fits of laughter. I think that having a sense of humor ( a good one mind you) is a gift and a blessing. The joy you bring to others amidst the laughter is something not as easily invoked by other matters. I think I read once in reader's digest that "Laughter is the best medicine". So true! I really love to laugh so please do joke with me once in a while. please let it be a good one mind you? Been hearing lots of bad jokes that made me roll my eyes to the back of my head haha!

Went to play L4D after the walk with my CG guys and Swee Leong and Wen Jiang! Cool stuff. Its strangely relaxing haha when you play the game killing stuff and all. :) yes its relaxing. Got to hear that the NS guys got a ban on LAN haha. Oh wells I shall be careful to play in moderation. Experienced the aftermath of getting addicted once so I won't do it again. Escapism haha! To another world devastated by an apocalypse. Hordes of zombies out for your life and you have health packs, bombs and ammo to fend yourselves against this horror. Its sure interesting haha.

Woke up early today at 7am cuz I have Hopekids duty. Haha stayed up till 2am last night preparing and completing other works so when i woke up I felt DEAD TIRED! But thank God for the cold, woke me up a bit haha! Its really great, the vibrancy and energy you encounter in different services. Really glad that I got the chance to experience different ministries. No comparison intended. Hopekids is really wild abandonment in praising god! Haha we sang We Wanna See Jesus Lifted High and I Am Free. LoL! We ran around on stage for the latter and had actions for both songs. It was really refreshing and it really was fun seeing the kids praising God too! It doesn't matter what age you are or how you praise him, but when you praise together you can really see the presence of god in each and every single one of their tiny beings. Wei wen was there to enjoy the moment with me haha!

I feel really honored when I reflect upon the knowledge that I am helping to groom my 5 kids (Bowen Stephen Josiah Michelle Nathalie) in my CG to be equipped with the Love for God and Word of God so that they might be able to use these in their daily lives. You have a lasting impact on the youths of today, they are still at the age where they can be easily moulded, all the more we should be careful and place more importance into this work. Really pray that I would be able to get to know them even better and offer them advice when they need it LOL! Haha we played two games for CG today and the kids are super amusing! Haha the guys are at the age where they don't want to care about anything or listen to anything haha! The stage of 'being irritating'. And sadly some around me haven't grown out of that stage yet lol! Its MUST be a GUY THING. But they do listen when you talk to them firmly so thank god. Haha one thing I learnt about boys (small kids) from my relief teaching and interaction with kids is that you have to be firm yet not overbearing, listen when they speak so that they would do likewise for you. You have to gain their trust and make them feel that you are 'all right' ( no other better phrase that fits this).

'Tis truly strange, the mind of a small boy. Haha! For the girls yes yes more sensitive and blah blah blahas people usually stereotype. They share easily and are quick to trust, but you have to really make sure that this trust does not break. Because if it does, haha you are halfway to making the relationship a goner. So haha I guess there are both pros and cons of handling children. I find it real interesting, so I had in mind the thought of becoming a teacher LOL! Shall think it through again...

Haha whenever I am in the presence of many kids I feel a great joy! XD I am like smiling 90% of the time in their presence lol! I met a super cute kid today he is called Thaddeus haha! From Hopekinders and is as cute as a button. It was real fun when I carried him and ran around lol! Haha it is a nice picture that is painted not a scary one so get whatever horrid thought you have outta your head!!! Yups its great to be serving in the kids ministry.

Went to visit Matthew Yong's grandma later with Wei Wen and Yili. She looks weaker and frailer than the last time I saw her. Poor grandma. Will be keeping her in prayers! :)

That concludes my day which is well spent doing meaningful things! Yay! Time to battle the exam monsters! Hope to eat some good food soon :(((((

Love Kat

Once upon a december

2009-02-23T19:56:00.003+08:00

Once upon a December. This song has been stuck in my head for a few days now, so I decided to use it for my blog. It has a mysterious romantic air about it, truly delicious to the ears. haha weird way of puting it but I think its very apt all the same. Don't you think that there is always some enchanting and perhaps bewitching element that is found in many of the Disney movie's ost? Hehe maybe more so for the Disney Princess Series, its okay if you are a guy reading this and you go huh? Think Lion King instead. 'Can you Feel the Love Tonight' and 'Circle of Life'. I sometimes wonder if all good pieces of music are bought up by Walt Disney to enhance the impact and magic of his films.

I like this piece of music because of its enchanting (that word again) quality. It has a relaxing effect in me and I love that it my music. :) You don't always want to listen to heavy metal or rock music. Sometimes you need a good piece of music with stringed instruments or wind instruments. Not your elec guitar or heavy drums. Haha! You can then take the time to sit back and submerge yourself in the music, enjoying the cool night air and chewing cherry jellybeans. Yeah cherry jelly beans you didn't read wrongly. I decided to finish up the food in my house before they expire. Hunting from every nook and cranny cuz I have food all over the place, past gifts or forgotten purchases. Sometimes I wonder why manufacturers do not sell one bottle of jellybeans which are solely cherry flavoured? I cannot stand cinnamon and licorice. Urgh horrible tasting. Sweets should be what their name dictates them to be SWEET! Not spicy or bitter.

Spent 4 hours today hunting for the perfect gift for someone. All I can say is 'Please like it' Haha! If you don't its okay we can go buy another one. I don't mind wearing the one I bought you ahha! I couldn't find any in the colours you adore your dark greens and browns. Thought that the piece I bought would help brighten up your wardrobe :) No more T shirts haha! Retail Therapy is fantastic, you don't have to even buy anything. Though a purchase would be great. I have my eyes set on 2 dresses from Hula and Co. I shall get them soon XD Excited!

Oh another thing! I changed my mind about home products. I used to think that you need to buy expensive face masks for them to be good, but I WAS WRONG! On a whim, I decided to try some face masks from Watsons. I am a face mask addict if you didn't know. They costs no more than 2 bucks and they work relatively well. This is in consideration to brands like Ginvera, which are supposedly better and hence their heavier price tag. I recently bought masks manufactured by Sasa in order to top up my purchase and I tried once today. Its fantastic haha! Give you a rosy cheeked glowing complexion!!! Woohoo and the material of the mask is definitely better than Ginvera. Its silky smooth and soft to touch. Now on the the mask. It very cooling, you face would feel tingly throughout and that's extremely relaxing! :))) The Green Tea Antioxidant face mask enhances detoxification for a clearer and more luminous complexion :))) Haha you can go try. Its $6.95 for a 3 pc pack. Don't look down on home brands okay!

For you out there who don't even think of doing anything for your face. Wahaha we shall wait and see. Lol not that I am cursing you but given the climate of Singapore and the powerful UV rays let in by our depleted ozone layer. Sunscreen is the minimum you should use even if you do not want to venture into the lands of the face masks. If you are a guy and you are reading this. Yeah you probably don't have to care if you don't want to hahaha! The face is more important for the ladies :))) You guys can concentrate on your careers instead haha that's more important lol! Not that it isn't for the girls, but you can't deny that looking good gives you certain benefits and an edge in the working world. As the saying goes, 'There are no ugly women only lazy women. I think that's very true. We can't all manage to look kickass good, but at least we can try to look well groomed yeah?

Today shall be dedicated to my Gek modules :) Tomorrow's karaoke at Joo Seng and Thursday's dining with HY and shopping with my MOM!!! Life looks good this week :) Oh! No migraines plaguing me so far! Benedictine Dom's good!

Headache

2009-02-19T22:51:00.003+08:00

I have been suffering from bouts of headache recently. I have had a history of it all along, but I am quite surprised that this ghost of my past has decided to come haunt me again. Splitting migraines are definitely not something to trifle with. I guess it comes with stress and is intensified by my low blood pressure. I really hate to be harping about the blood pressure and all but i really hope that it does not affect me when i start working. It will truly prove to be my greatest handicap... God!!! Please take the migraines away!

Today is special, cuz I think I may have found the cure to my migraines. My mother has always been trying to pump me up with some Chinese medicine to make me stronger lol! I never really liked Chinese medicine so I just put it off. I guess what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Haha I always thought so when I was having one of the headaches. Its like the sides of your head are splitting apart slowwwwwly but painfully so. Sleep was great for those times, but imagine having to sit through lessons or even exams with your head trying to split and you trying to gather whatever brain cells you can to process your mind. NOT a very good thing. Well I have made it thus far haha *pats self on the back*. NOW for the new cure!!!! Haha you wouldn't believe this!

My parents' wedding wines. Hahaha!!! they are definitely older than me, in wine terms, they are super potent and lethal!!! I am currently drinking from the Benedictine Dom bottle. I think its about 30 plus odd years? The bottles have been sitting in my cupboard for a long long time. Haha I guess their time of use has come. Why do I say lethal? Cuz if you take a whiff right.... Your nostrils will burn. Hahahha! When you take a sip, your lips and throat and tummy burns. It may sound dreadful, but that's just what I need and the headache has subsided wooohooo! Its really one of the finest wines I have ever tried! It has hints of caramel, which I simply adore and really make you feel warm!!!! Haha I hope that this doesn't mean that I would turn out to be an alcoholic... Heaven forbid. But I may consider bringing around a small bottle of wine tucked in my handbag for emergency purposes lol!!!! Haha! Its very handy if you come to think of it. Not only can it cure headaches, it can also act as a weapon for unwanted attackers for example *ahem*. Yeah if you know the sag that happened near my house you would know who I am referring to.

I really want to thank God for taking away the headaches tonight!!! I better start functioning my brain well, I need to start getting serious about school! :) Yay! I love Benedictine Dom!

To all you migraine sufferers out there! You may wanna try this at home :)

Revived!

2009-02-18T00:17:00.002+08:00

After posting last night, at around 12.30am (Yes I wasn't sleeping yet) I received something special. It was something from God and I received it during my quiet time. The true power of music and lyrics knows no bounds when it is harnessed and put into a song. It can speak to multitudes in different ways and the impacts it can have varies from person to person. It all depends, I have learnt on how ready your heart is to receive.

If you aren't ready, all that you may think of is that it is simply just a song. Nothing more, nothing less. On the other hand, if you just allow yourself to be quiet and really listen, not just hear but listen to the song. Think about the lyrics, they are more than words. Look at the meanings that delve deeper than the words. It may be just something that speaks to you. When you do receive, it is incredible. Simple words cannot be used to convey what I personally feel, you need to be the one experience it to know it fully. Its time to take your quiet time seriously people!!!

Just to share, this is the song which spoke to me. It is titled " I will run to you". Its one of my favorite worship songs. Do listen to it if you have the time :)

Your eye is on the sparrow

And Your hand, it comforts me

From the ends of the Earth

to the depth of my heart

Let Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose

As angels understand

For Your glory, may You draw all men

As Your love and grace demand

And I will run to You

To Your words of truth

Not by might, not by power

But by the spirit of God

Yes I will run the race

Till I see Your face

Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

I guess I've decided the purpose in my life, other than living pursuing a career, getting married, having kids and then just dying, it would be accompanied by one very special individual. That is.....GOD!!! Its really kickass to have someone you can constantly depend on and know that he won't fail you. I may not know what lies ahead of me tomorrow, BUT I know who holds my tomorrow. That is really comforting especially in times when I worry haha! First day of work or having a test tomorrow. One reason why i can sleep with ease is the prayer and the faith which accompanies it!

" God I dunno what to do already, I commit everything unto your hands. Amen " Zzzzzzzz....

It may not be the most refined prayer one can come up with, but it really lays my heart to rest! Haha! This is my secret to a good night's sleep. No point wasting sleep over what you cannot control. When you feel that you have done your best, let God take over. LOL

Oh and I won a $20 DOLLARS ADIDAS VOUCHER!!!!! How cool is that lol! I ate subway at SMU today, and I got a scratch card. I was expecting 'Thank you please try again' Never really had luck in these kind of stuff but I got a voucher!!! Haha not bad, I earned back my meal money with a bonus. YAY! :)

CG was really great today, learned a lot of great stuff of the people in CG. Jiehui came to crash our CG today. Think he is on some secret mission or in a conspiracy lol! I am gonna end of this post with some points I took away from the CG.

The first is that each one of us has our own unique paths for us set out by God. We should not compare with other fellow believers what we have or do not. I think this is something which we overlook sometimes. We relate the amount which we serve to the amount that God should bless us with. yes, God said that he would not shortchange us but perhaps he would bless us in a way which we don't see. Intangible things that may be worthless in the eyes of the world but invaluable to us. Examples: Character, morals... You may be the richest guy on the earth, but if you lack morals and gained all that money by unscrupulous methods, but at the end of the day you end up being the poorest.

Secondly, if we really claim to love God, how much do we hate what he hates : SIN. That is something definitely worth chewing on. It is a love out of convenience or really one that is genuine?

Yups loads more I learnt but I can't post them all. Gotta nurse my blocked nose. Goodnight guys! Hope the rest of the week goes well for you :)

GOD BLESS YOU!!!!!!!!!

Mugging

2009-02-17T14:17:00.006+08:00

I think today is a good day! I got up on time without feeling any lingering threads of fatigue. My flu is improving, the only thing that has gotten worse is my throat. Hope it gets well soon. I have been thinking about it, and I really think I should be getting down to doing some serious studying and mugging to push up my Cap!

My midterms

13th March - Science of Music
22nd March - Genes and Society
25th March - Principles of Comm Mgmt

Yay!!! I only have 3 mid terms this sem :) Shall get down to mugging for all of them man! Perhaps I should set my target for my modules first to get myself motivated to study!!!

NM2216 - A

NM2219 - A

NM2220 - B+

Cap : 4.5 [They always said that it was better to aim high :) ]

LOL! Now I feel more motivated. Time for some pics! People that I treasure! Huiying! You are not here cause you haven't met me in such a long time lol! Where's our choc fondue date?!!!

Aggie, Meirong, Saffie and Me!

AJChoir Mahjong Fanatics

CG at full strength!!!

Formal CG shot

At Kenny Rogers celebrating Victor's birthday

TWJ

Saffie is trying to dig out something...

The uncle looks scary...

Kristen

Chen Chen

Chubbycheeks

Saffie again!

Group shot! :)

Wei wen, Lee yang and ZYS

That's all! Off for my Genes and Society lecture now :)

Sad

2009-02-17T00:17:00.008+08:00

Lol I am feeling a bit woozy from the medicine now and a little confused haha! I am now officially a programmer, not an ogl as i speculated. Oh wells I have to admit definitely that I was a tad disappointed but I really hope to see this role as a challenge. No doubt, being a programmer would be very stressful with all the deadlines and preparations needed. I hope to approach this with an open mind and really with excitement. Let me see this as a privilege and not a chore :) I will definitely keep this in prayer. God you must help me!!!

Have a lot of things piling on my mind. Not only recently but yeah it has accumulated all the way from the end of last year. I guess its really like doing New Year's cleaning out and throwing away all the old bad and the useless stuff. I really hate being bogged down by negative feelings and thinking. Its really not the way I want to live, or spend my time. I want to make peace and be at peace with the world lol! That may sound very childlike but it is something I wish to have. So that I would have time to concentrate on other stuff in my life, having the time to smell flowers as one would say.

As the bible says "The old has gone the new has come." I pray that I might be a new creation! :)
One who is able to live her life to the fullest everyday, not being bogged down by anything from Mr S.A. TAN. I really need to have hope, patience and perseverance!!!! Its gonna be a long journey ahead but I know that God is walking with me :)

I am doing Footprints for Women inspired by the poem "Footprints" by Margaret Fishback Powers as a supplementary reading for my Quiet Time. It has really strengthened me and helped me to get through some rough patches in my life. Here's the poem! Hope it blesses you too :)

One night I dreamed a dream.

I was walking along the beach with my Lord.

Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.

For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,

One belonging to me and One to my Lord.
When the last scene of my life shot before me

I looked back at the footprints in the sand.

There was only one set of footprints.

I realized that this was at the lowest And saddest times of my life.

This always bothered me

And I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.
"Lord, You told me when i decided to follow You,

You would walk and talk with me all the way.

But i'm aware that during the most troublesome

Times of my life there is only one set of footprints.

I just don't understand why, when I need You most, You leave me."
He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you,

never, ever, during your trials and testings.

When you say only one set of footprints,

It was then that I carried you."

He is carrying us when we are too weak to continue on!

This piece of knowledge really comforts me :)

Regular posting

2009-02-17T00:17:00.004+08:00

Yay I might be on to regular posting once again. Today, my headache's almost gone bull the dull heat of fever is still settled in. My nose has start to become runny, thank God it isn't blocked up though. This Sunday was a good time of lazing around and reading my read from the National Library. I dun really get hooked onto romance novels, but I simply love sci-fi and fantasy novels. A great read I found is Geomancer by Ian Irvine. Up to this point, I have ploughed through525 pages of the book and I still want to continue to read on. that's how strong the lure of this book is. Don't you get excited when you are transported to another land by simply a book. The world's greatest theatre screen is in your own imagination. The monsters and characters the book describes appears unique and different in each of our different minds, the landscapes and wars inscribed within the pages. Truly miraculous! Do borrow it if you are a Sci-Fi fan! I look forward to my next visit to the library :)

The rest of the day has been spent finishing work and shopping with my brother for clothes. Alert all you guys out there! Topman has up to 70% discounts in its clearance sale. the Tshirts are going for 19 dollars each. And that is just the tip of the ice berg. I bought myself a belt from the racks lol! Thank God for metrosexual styles, now girls can cross over to Topman too! It was really great spending time with my brother, I wasn't able to do so. As you grow older, siblings normally drift apart. I really hope that doesn't happen to my family as i value family ties a lot, of what's left of them. All the more to keep the family bonds strong! Speaking of family bonds, time for some cousin pics took during CNY. Hope you guys enjoy them! Do spend more time with your loved ones! They are precious and irreplaceable :)

My cute nephew Eugene :)

The reason why I grew up loving power rangers and lan gaming :)

Crazy cousins

Falling chips! Me and my brother :)

Nice shot! The gamblers!

Falling cards!

Cousins shot :)

That's all folks :) I need to get some sleep Bye!!!

Revival

2009-02-15T23:32:00.004+08:00

Its been near a month and a half since I blogged. its weird tt I chose to do it now, where I am suffering from some kind of virus. first it was viral fever with bouts of nausea enough to make one merlion all over the table. then today its fever and a flu tap nose. Its doesn't help that the eyelids do not remain fully open. I feel like propping them up with some toothpicks. Its getting tiresome, this lethargic feeling and this heavy head of mine. Makes me feel like its filled with mountains of lead. The only consolation is tt UHWC has cheap medicine lol! I only paid $1.05 for my medicine thank God!

Despite this suffering, I decided to visit the National Library today. Borrowed a few good reads. i shall improve my level of English proficiency lol its been stuck at the JC level. I shall aim to own you know who in NUS Haha!

2 more weeks till mid terms, I got my schedule planned out. Tomorrow I shall be doing my NM2216 readings and trying to get a headstart on Genes and Society. Welcome to the world of Dolly the Sheep, Tetra the monkey and the Lewinsky gate.

Just got notified tt I am in the programming team, hop tt means I was successfully selected to be an OGL! Yay! :) Its really exciting that I am going to play a larger role in this upcoming matriculation! Hope that all goes well! I should recover soon and really start exercising. I shall do some jogging or play some sports on Sunday. Someone just told me tt my calves got chunkier OO. Yes... So not encouraging.

Zhangyushao is looking bored in my com table, I should bring her out more often lol! I think she needs a wash soon. Zhangyushao : A female octopus gifted to me by my CG its b'dae is on 22/11/08. Okay that's all for now! I need to stick t my sleeping b4 12 routine! Anything for better skin! XD

Another week, another battle! Some pics from the Kuku and Mighty Alliance Christmas dinner :)

Bye!

I am Alive

2008-12-25T23:25:00.004+08:00

Yes yes I am alive! Just too caught up with the holidays that I have forgotten blogging. Recently, there has been one issue on my mind. Bugging me and I so want to get rid of it. What do you do when a certain group of people have marbles for brains when they meet a certain element? And guess what? They lost their marbles. Too many have fallen faced with this element and not recognising the initial warning signs. I have watched many replays, some faster, some with different situations but all coming and asking "How?" That's a very good question. But you know what, I hope to encounter less of the question now. Its tiring. I really hope that I will be able to continue to trust that they have pure intentions, however difficult it is to convince me. God, you really have to step into the picture this time.

Are platonic relationships possible? Personally, I think that they are NOT! So how does one continue to tread this path of ours without venturing across the line and being able to make sound minded decisions? Decisions which do not end up destroying ourselves or a friendship with the other party? I don't have the exact answer, but I hope to find out slowly in the future with more interactions. I pray that I might be able to divert my attention to other more important matters. Cease the boiling of blood. Relationships are a tricky affair. I pray that they might gain back their marbles soon and be able to back up their good heart with pure intentions. Well, I guess relationships at our age is an issue that most would encounter, being normal human beings.

Moving on, last night i had an immense craving for unagi, salmon sashimi, fried tofu, sushi, salmon. Lo and behold, I managed to satisfy this craving today at Sakae!!! Went with Huiying, Cai and Lirong. As usual, Cai was being her old self and really saying and doing funny things. Weird character man. Lirong is her hapless roomie who is sleep deprived due to Cai's need to HTHT at ungodly hours. Huiying is the calm one who watches all our antics. It was truly an enjoyable time, being able to laugh. Tis a good feeling. Being able to tease knowing that the individual doesn't mind. Tis a good feeling. Being able to be carefree walking down from Orchard to City hall with the breeze on your face knowing that you don't have school tomorrow. Tis a good feeling. I pray that I would be able to enjoy these simple luxuries of life even when school reopens. Arghhh next sem, I only have one free day, MON! Ok that's all folks! I shall be doing snippets of events that had gone on during the period of my absence on this blog of mine.

Third installment

2008-12-22T02:55:00.003+08:00

Last but not least, the final installment for this post! After only 4 hours of sleep due to supper, I hauled my deadbeat body out of bed and made my way down at 830 to somerset for HOPEKIDS LIVE!!! Haha its really great working in this ministry and getting to interact with so many children!

Today was special cuz I got to know a certain someone better this service! She is one other than!!!!! ELYSE!!!!!

Xiangyu came along to visit today and attempted swallowing a wooden stick lol! Crazy woman!

After service, Me and Freedy were assigned with the task of looking after Elyse and her brother Jonathan!

She doesn't like to eat yoghurt so guess who finished it up? LOL

Looking cute with presents and the bears behind!

The video games are actually quite fun! Its been ages since I went to a toy store and played around lol!

Intently playing

Its been great knowing her better lol! She loves all thing pink! Cuteness! Shall look forward to my next serving in HopeKIDS!

Tomorrow is gonna be a crazy day, so I prepared the Christmas cards for my favorite girls first! Will be meeting them for Christmas Dinner tomorrow night! :)

God Bless You, God is moving this Christmas! :)))

Birthdays and our last day at NEXUS

2008-12-22T02:26:00.006+08:00

Saturday was truly exciting, we celebrated the birthdays of 3 very dear people on that day! First up, we celebrated the birthdays of Yanyu and Zach! Yanyu officially turns 19 today, a BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU MY DEAR SISTER! The celebration consisted of people from the old transition CG and our special guest, Ben Tay's brother who looks nothing like him lol! Pictures will be up soon! They are with MDS tsk tsk!

Next important event, our last service at Nexus! our CG had a theme today and it was STRIPES!!!! I was feeling real excited and sad about it being our last service at Nexus. Happy that we would have our own tertiary service and thus have more flexibility in adjusting the service to suit our needs. Hope we find a great venue sooon! It sad to see the last of nexus, we won't have to chance to brush shoulders with or bump into people from other services anymore. It is sorta like a child moving out to live by ourselves for the first time. Nexus has been our home, the place where we belong. Wells, no more Hope Resource any longer or Isle Cafe. But I believe that God has things greater in store for us! :)

Carrie's Kitty Paw!

Group Pic outside Nexus

Shem

Wee Keong (Looking insane as usual)

We love Nexus!

Someone is acting cute pls spot

Liyi

Okay Folks! Its time for ZZ's birthday!!!!! Our dear CL who is pushing the 30 mark soon LOL!

Celebrating at Meridien b4 service

The birthday board!

Nettie is trying to Muay Thai Punch someone

Close up of our Birthday Board to him!

Replicating the pose again

Maureen! :)

Extras behind

This time with flash

The shot we laboured for

Group shot again! STRIPES

The birthday boy!

The girls of the group

Thank you ZZ for devoting yourself to growing the CG! Thanks for being there and persevering on! Lets grow this CG strong! :) Happy Birthday again! :) I love you NEXUS!

Prawning

2008-12-21T23:32:00.005+08:00

Okay this will be a special day haha I am going to do 3 installments. The first installment for this post is the prawning session that took place on Friday! It was my first attempt prawning, but not too bad, I caught FIVE! Yay! Haha! XD I think catching the prawns was more satisfying than eating them cause it took so long to cook the irritating prawns! Here are some snapshots of us fighting out, Me, Joseph and Victor. Victor kept getting his bait eaten by the prawns poor guy. I emerged victorious out of the trio, with a total of 5, they caught 2 each lol!

I think Joseph is trying to tell me that there are prawns in the pond lol!

My first prawn!!!!

My 4th one I think! Haha looking retarded guys!

Finally he got one with pincers!

Yesh yesh pincers!

Zhangyushao shares the joy in our takings for the day!

Where we do the cooking

Posing with the number 3!

Yay Liyi! The girl who loves to torment me during missions but is now a dear sister-in-christ! :)

O my goodness look at the size of those pincers!!! Sherli is trying to sneak a kiss on him i think.

Haha the most spontaneous kid who took a pic with me! XD WORLD PEACE!

More kids!

With Uncle Victor

It was truly great getting to spend time with my CG members and talking with the friends they invited! Prawning is really a new exp! Haha lol I seem to spot kids where ever I go and can't resist taking pictures with them! Love kids! :) Do try prawning! It is a refreshing experience truly! :)

Went supper with Jon Foo, Ben tay, Nettie, MDS, Yanyu and Guo Feng after tt. Went Chinatown to have frog porridge and fried mini crabs! Had a good time talking and doing a video on ZYS LOL! Catch her on facebook! The pics will be up soon, MDS hasn't sent them to me yet. End of first installment.

Special Segment on Zhangyushao

How do we know that people love her?

People cam whore with her!

She makes new friends LOL!

End of special segment lol! the funny things you type at 3am!

2008-12-19T00:45:00.004+08:00

Today shall be a light post! Haha I am still recuperating from the Manila missions trip! When i was waiting for Hong tao yesterday, I saw Guan Zhen and Ming Xi at the Orchard station, so I headed over to them. Suddenly, one of the mrt staff approached me and tapped me. I thought for a moment there that I had broken one of the rules in the MRT and was going to get reprimanded or something! To my surprise! It turned out to be someone I knew, my junior from NYJC! Haha holiday job eh! Looking cute with the santa hat! Sorry if I guffawed too much with laughter! You had me in shock there!

Zhen Zhi the Customer Service Assistant!

The prayer meeting yesterday was great! I felt that Wen Jiang's teaching really made a lot of sense, save for the constant lame moments... I think if he cut down on those, the teaching would have been a whole lot more powerful. Well anyway, good job Joshua! Having a 'semblance of spirituality' Hmm, something definitely for us to chew upon. Are we really carrying out what we do in our lives as a Christian out of duty, out of obligation, or do we truly comprehend the real motive behind our actions? It is very dangerous and sad if we realize at the end of the day that what we have is merely a 'semblance of spirituality'. I hope that we would be able to find a location for our service that is conducive, convenient and cheap! LOL! Yes the 3Cs! God we need your help now!!!!

Went to pick up my mother from surgery this afternoon at 3pm. It was at some place in the medical centre nested in an area of paragon. My mom was still drowsy from the effects of Anaesthesia, so she bid me to go shopping or walk around. Walk around I did for 2 hours. Nothing is nice, but girls do check out Mango, it has reductions up to 50%. Still searching for my LBD for Christmas. The only purchase I made today was apple juice (good for your complexion) and a huge scoop of Dark Choc ice-cream from Venezia! I applaud the recipe! I really felt super happy licking away at the huge scoop! Alas, it was finished very soon... A big thank you to all who were concerned about me and my mother's operation! :)))) I really appreciate it :) Smooches to all! XD

Lastly, I wanna say a big happy birthday to my MOM! Shall not disclose her age, but I will be celebrating her birthday as a surprise for her tomorrow at her flat. Here's the card I made for her!!! Sorry guys haha Manila part 2 will be up soon. Hope to catch loads of prawns tomorrow!

You have no idea how much time it took to stick those stuff on

The back!

Kat is happily munching on Dark Chocolate Toberlone at 1am :))))

Manila Trip Part 1

2008-12-17T13:55:00.007+08:00

Haha this will be part one of the Manila Trip. I will be uploading one part a day haha a total of 8 parts and perhaps a special post after the installments. LoL! Hope to give you guys reading my blog a taste of what it was like, the 8 days of missions in Manila.

It was really when when i got onto the plane and found my seat that I thought yeah I am really going to Manila for missions lol! This is not a dream! The Filipino lady beside me began talking to me in Tagalog. I didn't realize it was Tagalog till 2 attempts of trying to understand what she was trying to say lol! Do I look like a Filipino? LOL XD We arrived at the Manila Airport and met with our first problem, we couldn't find the people from Hope Manila who were supposed to pick us up lol! Thanks to Bentay, we found them. Yayness and we met Hani and Jasmine for the first time, 2 dear sisters from Hope Manila.

It was real fascinating, as we sat in the cab headed for the church, we discovered that Manila had many other forms of transportation different from Singapore. They have a total of five forms of public transport. The Jeepney, the cab, the LRT, the bus and the tricycle. The Jeepney was something very fascinating to me, as the Jeepney owners were allowed to decorate the Jeepney as they pleased. For car racing fanatics, you could catch glimpses of F1 printed across the Jeepney, or if the guy is a anime fanatic, you could even see dragonball characters! They have style man haha something you probably wouldn't be able to see in Singapore. The traffic there is really horrendous. Its amazing that amidst the complexity and mess, things still function. I have never witnessed a single car accident or people getting knocked down when I was there. I really applaud the drivers, I think that perhaps Manila has the best drivers!

One of the more toned down Jeepneys

The bus

The Tricycle

Zhangyushao has been to Philippines!

Zac loves her!

Guan loves her too!

Sitting in the taxi, I took the time to observe everything that was around me. Drinking in the views of this new land that was going to be my home for the moment. One thing that struck me other than the heavy traffic was the poverty that i witnessed there. Stark poverty. You may have read about it, heard about it, squatter settlements, slums, but seeing it personally spells a whole different story all together. How bad can it get you could have thought, when reading about them, but when you see them, that's how bad it can get and it can get worse. imagine living in a house made out of cardboard by the roadside. Imagine bringing up your kids and family in them. No privacy, save electricity and a source of fresh drinking water. It really makes me wonder, how are the poeple going to continue to live like this? Can they survive? What about their children? I felt my compassion grow, but feeling is one thing and doing something about it is another. I seriously do not have any idea how I as an individual can do something to help the thousands and thousands of people out of poverty. This would be something on my mind, as I grow up. How can I give back to the society, I really thank God that i was born in Singapore and do not have to live from hand to mouth.

We then arrived at our first stop, the Joyce Apartelle. We were quite excited, cuz it really looked like a nice place to live in. We sat at the floor level of the apartment waiting for Jasmine to check if there were apartments that we could rent. Alas, haha it was not to be, there were no apartments available, so we had to go to the church first then decide later our tentative venues to spend the night in. On to the church we trudged. One thing about walking on the streets in Manila. You have to be careful about your bags, especially if you are a foreigner! haha I look like a Filipino so i think i am safe lol! Next, you need the use of your ears. When you are walking and looking in front of you, you need your ears to detect the sounds of on coming traffic! the roads are very narrow so much caution is needed! It is too early to lose any member now haha!

Waiting for our apartment

When we finally arrived at Hope Manila, I heaved a sigh of relief. At last, we have reached the church! Haha! I didn't really arrive with any expectations of how the church would be like so I was quite excited with what I saw. It is a fairly huge compound. We were met by the sight of teenagers playing basketball in the basketball court cum carpark the church had. The building was a lovely sky blue. Really looked like a place of solace lol! We walked into the church and really, the church is not rundown at all. The walls were whitewashed, the floor tiled with some lovely white tiles and the stage was just like the one we have at nexus. At one end of the church, there were 4 rooms which meetings or classes were held, much like our own america room and africa room. All of them had aircons in them, including the hall too. So the church is really quite well furnished and equipped! Praise the Lord!

At the church

A toast for making it ths far!

After we settled down our stuff. we set off for our very first CG visitation. Dulce's CG! It was to take place at the Pastor's house! We took a train and 2 Jeepneys! The train concept is very similar to the one we have in Singapore, even the signs. However, we have to have our bags checked before we enter the station. this is due to a bombing incident that had occured in the past. Riding on the Jeepney was a fun experience. 'Bayan Paur' means here's my change. the jeep has 2 rows of seats facing each other. You can even choose to sit beside the driver, I was really amazed about the honesty of the Filipinos. You pay your fare by passing it in front, aided by the people who sit in front of you. The change is then passed back by the respective people too! haha great honesty! Really amazing! The driver too is amazing! He has to navigate the vehicle amidst the crazy traffic, collect the fare, count out the change and listen out for people who want to alight. A pretty amazing feat aint it?

In the Jeepney with Jasmine

I got to talk more to Jasmine and I was really impressed and encouraged by the testimonies she shared. On average, people require 1-2 hours to get to their CG venue. Little are late! There were a couple of sisters who couldn't afford the transportation fare, so they travelled to their CG venue by foot! imagine walking the distance that is covered by a vehicle in 2 hours! Amazing perseverance, really encouraged! We should think twice now before complaining about having to travel to our CG venue now aint it?

Arriving at the CG venue, we were met with very enthusiastic people who were ready to praise the Lord!!!! We did a Holy Spirit Baptism for them and I think that yeah I have loads more to grow in terms of my prayer stamina haha! The people in the group have much potential! Hope to see them rise up soon! I am really touched by Dulce's and Odete's spirit in wanting to serve!

Dulce's CG

We then travelled after a long day back to the church! We met the pastor's wife, Pastor Eunice! She is such a motherly figure! She helped us a lot in finding a place to stay for the night. The arrangement we ended up having was that the guys, me and Jingting would sleep in the church while Guan Zhen and Liyi would stay in the Ministry house! I am not scared of cockroaches or lizards or rats, infact I am filled with an urge to kill them! Haha so I was quite content with sleeping in the rooms in the church even though there might be rats and cockroaches running around. That night, I killed 2 cockroaches and ended up breaking the church's broom lol! Wells, had a good time talking to Jingting, a chance I wouldn't normally have back in Singapore! Was really blessed by it, got to know her better! My thoughts on the first night were! "Lord, I don't know how this is going to go, but I trust that this mission trip is in your hands so I shall not worry too much!" I used Zhangyushao as a pillow that night! Lolz she is useful! Wells end of part one! The next will come soon!

The broom I broke! The corpse of the cockroach is beneath!

Our bed for the night!

What I did today

2008-12-17T01:02:00.004+08:00

Before I venture on blogging about the post on my Manila missions trip, I shall blog about my day today. I dun even know where to start for the Manila trip haha! I cringe to think of the amount of words and pictures there would be, however I think I would love reminiscing about the extraordinary 8 days I spent in Philippines! :)

Today, I had a good 12 hours sleep on my bed that I missed so much. I can just like kiss my 4 pillows and my bolster and my comforter and my bed. My extended family whom I treasure so much lol! I missed you guys! I woke up at 11.30am and went down down for lunch with the matas and bentay after that. We shared a lil about our missions trip, I brought down my laptop so we could show them the photos and videos we took during our trip. The Balut eating videos were funny, I just might post them. LOL XD Balut, is basically a fertilized duck egg which has a partially formed duckling inside. It is steamed, so its just like an hardboiled egg. It tasted good, you guys should try it one day lol! Yummy!!! :)))))

Met up with chubbycheeks today, shared with her about my experience in missions. I think she is very tired after the youth camp which ended today, she even lost her voice! Haha not very good for a long sharing! So we went down to the arcade to burn off some steam!!! As we went home, we spent time doing some good ol' cam whoring!!! Here are the pics lol!!! :)

Chubbycheeks tried to snap me eating!

Yeah cute chubbycheeks!

Nice shot!

In the MRT

And again!

Haha chubbycheeks is trying to act cute!

Time for my individual shot!

Gifts from my beloved Manila sisters! :) Thanks so much! I won't forget you guys!!! :)

Lastly, just to post some thoughts. When I touched down from Manila to Singapore, I was met instantly by 2 pieces of bad news. My father had recently met with a car accident, but he is uninjured. My mom is going for an operation this Thursday. Wow haha talk about double whammy, but I remember telling myself to give thanks despite it all. I thank God for keeping my father safe and I thank God for keeping the rest of my loved ones safe while I am away in Manila doing his work. To give thanks despite it all. Will be keeping my mother in prayer. :) I know God that you will keep her safe in this operation! :) I pray that you will keep my brothers and sisters in Hope Manila safe too! :) Thank you God for everything! Will start on my Manila post soon!

Kat gave thanks

I am back

2008-12-15T20:20:00.003+08:00

Finally I am back from Manila! It was truly a great experience, I need to formulate the blog post haha! Think it would be super long!!!!! For now, enjoy your holidays people! The next post will be up soon! :)))

GoodBye Singapore!

2008-12-08T07:20:00.002+08:00

Goodbye Singapore! Goodbye my blog! I am flying off in 3 hours for Manila! Do take care of yourself my friends! Rest well, play hard, not much time left! Will be taking the team's mascot zhangyushao with us. The air con has gone crazy again, this time refusing to be turned off! Seriously, I think the air con guy is trying to rip us off by tinkering with the air con...

I am packed, with the bag standing as high or higher than my upper body and its width well... let's not talk about it? Hahah! Pray that I do not get killed by its weight! I sure do! See ya folks! :) Wouldn't be able to blog there unless I have a internet access or something.

Kat and ZYS waved bye! :)

Manila Trip

2008-12-07T13:00:00.002+08:00

I think the fact that I am about to board a plane to Manila tomorrow still hasn't registered in my mind. I do not go with a light heart, it is not a holiday. I am excited yet I am laden with many worries and even perhaps a hint of fear. It is not a good feeling, lying there with a thousand and one things zooming around in your mind. It is worse than having a thousand rabid dogs barking at your gate. There is a way to get rid of them (with much effort of course), but an unsettled heart and mind are not easy to calm. However, thankfully I did not have to spend my night the previous day as such.

My secret to having a good night's sleep? Commit it all to God and having the faith that everything lies in his hands. This was touched upon too in the sermon yesterday. I know not what lies ahead tomorrow, but I know who holds my tomorrow. It is with this faith that I am able to really lay down and rest.

There is so much to prepare for our missions trip, our testimony, the workshop and MCG we are organising. I am so glad that there are 6 of us going through it together. I really commit our team onto God's hands and pray that we can be a blessing to the people there and take away something from the trip too, to touch the people here.

Attended HopeKids today, and there was this moment in the service that really saddened me. A portion of the service set aside in remembrance of Joven. It made me realise how fragile life was. I have seen him before in Hopekids, but didn't really get the chance to get to know him. I remembered praying as a service for him as he was sick. His life was taken away so suddenly. Even when he was ill, he still attended Hopekids with his mom. He was the channel which God worked through to bring even his extended family to know Christ. Although his life was short, he made it count. Watching the video they made for him really brought tears to my eyes.

His life was so short. He was so young. God are you sure you know what you are doing? Such thoughts were going through my head. As I sat there, I really thought about these questions.

God then spoke to me. Do you not trust that I am Lord and my plans surpass the understanding of man? I am still God and I know what lies in your tomorrow, trust that I have the best plan for you. Do not doubt.

I was just thinking to myself as I was making my way home, would you give up your life if you could bring your family to know God? That is something worth thinking about. Definitely, you might be thinking maybe now's not the time, I have so many things that I must complete first, now's not the time. Joven was able to use his 7 years, short but meaningful, to help Christ reach out to his family. I believe that this is a feat few of us are able to boast of. It is really not about how long you live, but what you do with the years you have on Earth. If you were to be taken away at the moment in time, what are the things which you would regret leaving behind or undone? Perhaps this is a sign to really start making your life count. Live as if each day was your last. We don't have eternity on earth, why not make you life count? One life, soon will pass, only what is done for Christ will last.

Despite these happenings, I still do believe that God still loves Joven, its just that this was God's plan for him, the way he wished to used Joven as a warrior of his Kingdom. It was shared to us that in his last moments he was singing the song that many of us will find familiar.

Jesus loves me this I know
For the bible tells me so
Little ones to him belong
They are weak but he is strong
Yes Jesus loves me
Yes Jesus loves me
Yes Jesus loves me
For the bible tells me so

He did not doubt God. He still believed that God loved him, he did not hold a grudge against God. He is really an individual whom I will remember and be inspired by. I want to have a child-like faith and be a channel for God to work through. May God comfort Joven's family and bless his soul!

May God bless the missions team.

Worried

2008-12-06T01:14:00.002+08:00

What do you do when you don't know what to do? With thousands of implications and worries swimming in my head, I can't really think well. I never ever thought of myself as a worry wart but perhaps I may rethink that.

What should I do now? Should I try to keep a tight rein or just let it go loose and see where God wants to lead? But what if I let loose and something occurs, something that would leave me with regret? I guess this is a wake up call, just when you thought things were smooth sailing, you've got everything within your control, a voice just tells you in a loud booming statement: "You don't!"

This issue I shall entrust it into God's hands, there's only so much I an do, I believe prayer is the best I can do. Jumbled thoughts and emotions now.

My 19th Bdae with Kuku and Mighty Alliance

2008-12-03T21:10:00.005+08:00

Here are the promised pictures! My fabulous birthday celebration with my dear Kuku and Mighty Alliance! I didn't bring ZYS cuz she couldn't fit in my purse... And YES I am the only one wearing white! They are the ladies in black!

At Nihon Mura

Camwhoring outside The Grand Cathay!

And again...

And again!!!

Lol! We later decided to go back into the building to decide on our next destination!

Yes I am still posing

To the 5th level! To camwhore on the sofas!!!! Haha! Its amazing how you can spend your time with great fun without spending a single cent! XD

First Shot!

Pouting!

They decided to get behind the sofa! Lol I am glowing!

Still glowing!

Lol the chemistry between me and Mavis is impeccable!

Okay my turn to get behind the sofa!

Superman!!!

Oops you caught us camwhoring!

Time for group shot!!!

Thanks for the lovely card guys! XD

Our friendship is like a flower everlasting in bloom! :)
Love you guys!

Birthday Celebration with KUKU and Mighty Alliance

2008-12-03T01:16:00.006+08:00

Woohoo today is a great day!!! Haha however lets talk about what happened a fortnight ago first! I met up with my bestie of 5 years and counting! Yes it is YUEH HUIYING!!! We went to our usual place, "Swiss Culture" at Suntec City! I brought Zhangyushao of course haha! After seeing all those pics on my blog and facebook I should show her the real thing shouldn't I?

Yes she got to see the real deal! :)

It was a fantastic time of sharing! We shared from our current struggles, what's been going on in our lives and even looking to the future! It was sorta funny when we were discussing about courtship lol and we both agreed that our spouse should be from our church. There are many factors pertaining to this, for example the sharing of a common vision and yes we have faith in our brothers from Y Hope! LOL! But courtship should be like 2 years away lol! Its good and comforting all the same to have a sister to share to your concerns and your thoughts! Haha ok enough of that, I shall search for that topic outta my closet in 2 years time. It was so amazing the chemistry we shared, we were like discussing 3-4 different topics at a time and when we jumped topics the other understood the actual subject of conversation! I would say that it was like a tango haha! It was super cool, you may not have realised it Huiying! but I did! Haha I was doing the topic switching most of the time and you followed perfectly! Sharing without fear of stepping on the other's toes as we gave each other advice and comments on our current situations, it is a comfort in a friendship that is not easily obtainable. It comes with depth and length in a relationship, and most importantly with GOD in the centre! Here are some pics of our dinner and dear ol' Zhangyushao! XD

Starter

Appetizer

Main course: Sirloin Steak XD ZYS wants one too!

Group Pic with ZYS!

Of course, the dinner didn't just end there! We attempted some shopping around but alas, Singapore's stores close too early, thus we decided to have some dessert! Alas, they started closing too! Tis truly irritating! We finally decided upon Selegie tau huey lol! Yes that place which we all frequent on Saturdays! More sharing followed and cam whoring LOL! Didn't want the night to end, but it did all the same... Absence makes the heart fonder, so actually we should space our meeting ups out! XD Here are the pics we took!

Kat: Hey did you know that eating tau huay will make your face slimmer?

Huiying: Really!!!!!

LOLz

Ok next comes the highlight of last night!!!!!!!!!!! I finally celebrated my birthday with KUKU and MIGHTY ALLIANCE! Haha a memorable night! One of the greatest blessings I have is to have them as my friends! They are the ones whom I forsee in the near future I would still be meeting up 5 years down the road! Attending each other's weddings LOL! It may seem a little far fetched, but it is very possible! XD Let's nt give up meeting up! I await out party at Yvonne's house and our X'Mas dinner!

The dress code for the night as told to me was white! But GUESS WHAT! I was the only one wearing that, and they wore black! LOL! They were like my bodyguards! We trudged on to the Grand Cathay for Aston's, but the queue was sooooooooo long! We decided upon Nihon Mura instead! I think I consumed like a tonne of salmon and unagi lol! Of course with my favorite matcha ice cream to top it off! This time my braces didn't get coloured brown by the red beans in m ice cream! HAHA! We had a great time talking and updating each other about our lives, although. One thing I have to say about the conversation is :

Old loves lost, New loves found.

You may experience sadness or joy which knows no bound.

But rest assured, we are always there for you!
There to comfort you or share in your happiness, so don't be blue!

:D Woo feeling poetic today eh! Must be the salmon sashimi lol! It was a great time of cam whoring all over The Grand Cathay! Pics are still trapped in Wynee's cam! Shall put them up soon! I think we hit a hundred today?! LOL XD

My Mom!

Nights people! Good friends are hard to come by, so do treasure them!!! :)

Something I have to settle tomorrow, which bag to carry to Manila! LOLXD

Which one!!!!!

New chair!

2008-12-01T15:19:00.002+08:00

Woohoo! My new chair arrived! The chair that I study in, the chair which I blog in, the chair which I slack in! The old has gone and the new has come! :)

It has lower back support, upper back support and even back support! Lol Might just try sleeping in it one of these days! XD Afternoon nap!

Okay, today day be spent typing out the gender focused group teaching for the girls who missed it, enjoying a night of chocolate fondue and sharing with HUIYING! :) Life looks great and birthday celebration a ASTON'S tomorrow night with the girls! :) Happy :)

Since I have time on my hands, I shall set out my holiday plans!

To do! :

Plan the things I want to bring for my Manila trip

Brush up on my cooking skills (yes I cook!)

Brush up on my guitar skills

Spend more time reading the bible and christian lit

Organise my bursting wardrobe

Yup that it the current standing list. :) You better plan yours to, if you have holidays that is. Plan well before the holidays slip out of your fingers! XD

Good day to you, cuz mine is! XD

Freedom

2008-11-30T21:52:00.002+08:00

We're gonna dance dance dance in the freedom we know
We're gonna dance dance in the freedom we know
We're gonna dance dance dance in the freedom we know
Cuz the freedom we know is gonna last forever

Wells... In my case its till January lol! That's the sad life of a University student! For the first time in the longest time I caught my precious long dreamed of 9 hours of sleep! For the first time in an eon I woke up with nothing to do! Actually the night before I was praying for my tutee to cancel tuition! and guess what! GOD IS FAITHFUL! Haha he really cancelled lol! It was funny when I woke up! One thought that went through my mind was that 2-3 years from now I would have to start working! OMG The horror! I seriously dun have a clue what I wanna work as. I have an inkling that I would be working with kids! Perhaps I would open up a Montessori, since I love kids to bits! :)))))

Then again I might end up in an office job, not that I actually mind. I dun have any great ambitions or what so ever, but I believe that God would be able to put me somewhere I would enjoy with my arts degree. I just want to be able to enjoy the simple things in life like taking the time to feel the breeze rushing through my fingers or just spend time being unproductive! Haha the simple comforts that we take for granted in life! Thinking of life, the issue of the recent terrorist attack in Mumbai springs up. It is so sad that the female lawyer was killed by the mindless and inhumane actions of 4 men. She was so young, she could have accomplished so much more, she didn't even get to enjoy motherhood and even the chance to say her last farewell to her family was denied. Denied without any negotiations by two shots of the gun. Tis a truly horrible way to meet your end.

It really makes me even more determined to make everyday of my life count. Live everyday of your life as if it were your last. Sometimes my actions may seem too extreme, too loud or even over enthusiastic to some, but that is my way of living my life! To give my best in whatever I possibly can! I have decided to devote my life to one institution, the Church Of God. Therefore I am serving in his church and I will try to my very best to help it advance in whatever way I can, my talents my giftings, my time. I do not serve because my leader tell me to, not because I have been so long a Christian, it has just become a habit. I serve with a clear purpose and reason in mind. To love because he first loved me.

I do worry slightly for the safetly of the team that I am going with to Mumbai. I worry that perhaps the same will happen to us. There is always that possibility, but I believe that through prayer, God will keep his people safe lol! Don't take me away GOD! I haven't even enjoyed motherhood yet! I haven't earned my first 10k yet! Who will take care of Zhangyushao LOL!!!! Yeah! Haha but then again, we should not fear! Cuz we are God's warriors! NO FEAR! For it says in Pslams 23:4 :

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

AMEN! We shall not fear, you can't accomplish much when your fear gets the better of you!

Now on to my activities for today! After waking, I watched ANTM cycle 11 until 2pm! LOL! Super Unproductive! After which... I WENT SHOPPING!!!!! Woohoo! Haven't gone in 2 weeks!!! I shopped for 3 hours! I love shopping alone!!!! Haha you should try it sometime! Its really relaxing! I think I got some exercise! Walking for 3 hours!!!!!! Woohoo never seemed easier! I lugged my haul back home with joy!!!! Tis the season to be jolly! XD One thing I dun like about shopping is that it gets very crowded on weekends! Worse still, there are couples everywhere! The guys take up so much space in the shop and they can't even buy anything! Seriously... LOL

After shopping, came family dinner. It was peaceful this time round so not too bad. We went to visit my maternal grandparents after that! It is so great to see them, not that I am very close to them, but they are family. Seeing them, I just felt a surge of fondness. It was great to see my grandma, she is so funny and thankfully I understand Hokkien so I was listening to her convo between me and my MOM! It was the usual haha family gossip! Keeps me updated yah!

The end of a very unproductive day which I accomplished so much too, a day well spent!

Come to think of it, I will be flying off for Manila soon and very soon, 8th DEC! Goodness! I went to buy a pair of berms specially. Take note ppl! Giordano is having 30% discount store wide! (Provided you buy min. 3 pieces) 20% for 2 pieces. Enjoy life folks! You never know when it might get robbed from you.

Can't wait for tomorrow, meeting my pri sch bestie and Huiying tomorrow! Life is good:)

Tomorrow is my Last!

2008-11-28T21:22:00.002+08:00

Yayness, tomorrow is my last paper! Nowadays, I have been feeling super drowsy and sleepy. I think its really more than the afternoon syndrome alr. I think its my low blood pressure acting up again. I gotta remember to take more salt (that's what the doc advised). I am really excited thinking of what I have got lined up for me after tomorrow! All hell will break loose!!!! XD Haha ok maybe not.

Just to make myself happy I have decided to list out my events for next week!

Sun: Family Dinner
Mon: Meeting up with Huiying!
Tue: Birthday Celebration with Kuku and Mighty Alliance
Wed: Meet up with Saffie to celebrate Birthday!
Thursday: Shopping crazily for Xmas and Manila
Friday: Celebration dinner with Hsiao En and Jon Lim

Woohooo I am excited! XD
I have also decided that I shall live healthier for the hols!!!! I am going to start EXERCISING!!!!
Yeah! Its not good to sit all day! I am contemplating if I should jog at night or in the morn and should I get a hula hoop? Hmmmm.... Shall go Toys' R' Us one day!!! LOL XD

Till the next post! All those who still have to mug for papers, all th best! :)

2 more

2008-11-27T15:44:00.005+08:00

I have officially finished 3 papers and there's still 2 more to go! Do congratulate me on sat! Cuz I would have then been released from the evil clutches of the Final Terms! I have sorta lapsed into the holiday mood alr! Tsk tsk... Its very difficult for me to be stressed out now cuz freedom is near! I rewarded myself in an unhealthy manner! KFC for lunch yummy! Lapsed into the afternoon laze after tt, to keep awake I decided to camwhore a bit with zhangyushao!

Christmas is coming!!!

Santa you better give me my present or else.....

I want a gold medal too!!!

Zhang yu shao on print! LOLz

That all folks!

I will get back to studying once again, only left with GEK2022 and Sn1101!!! :)

Peace

2008-11-25T21:08:00.002+08:00

I stared out of the window of my living room and the sky painted a unique image. It's heavy hues of blue held promise of rain that was to come, yet amongst that there were splashes of crimson orange. A very queer image it is, but I could find myself identifying myself with it.

Exams are something that would freak out any normal person, unless you have have a super high IQ and study hard to boot. You see people really cracking under the pressure, and sometimes I think to myself: "Whew, thank God I have God!" The hues of heavy blues are the stress and dread that I carry in me. However, I also have splashes of crimson in me too, the happiness which stems from within. I am of course stressed by exams, but I know that I am not doing this alone. I know my purpose is greater than passing exams and all, but the exams are merely a stepping stone.

I find myself being even more relaxed during the exam period, it may seem strange to you or you just might feel the same too. I have more time to sleep, more time to stare out of my window and just enjoy the scent of the breeze! More time to eat, more time to shop (whoops), more time to spend time with my friends. Definitely, there should be a balance, I study too, don't you worry!

To all you out there who are stressed or feel that the exams are too great a force to be reckoned with, take a step back and see the situation as it truly is. Do you believe that the exams are bigger than our God? I don't think so. Haha! We may be well prepared, moderately prepared or unprepared at all for our exams, but one constant factor which is present is GOD! And the family of God, I feel so blessed knowing that we have a community in NUS, battling the exams together! We keep each other in prayer and also help to spur one another on. I believe that The NUS community is something that we shouldn't take for granted for. There were people who had to soften the ground and sow the seeds that have blossomed today. Let's continue sowing seeds too and help to propel this family of God to greater heights! :)

A Verse for all those who are stressed!

6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

Philippians 4:6-8

Look out for the NUS Christmas Party which will occur in Dec! Haha I am part of the planning committee! I will do my best to make it a blast! :)

God Bless You!

Rest Day

2008-11-25T15:31:00.004+08:00

This is my only break amidst this crazy hit-and-run case of exams! 4 more days to freedom! Hope I can survive them! Attempted to finish some of the cakes in my fridge! LOL XD Had a good lunch this afternoon, with bentay and the policemen! haha got more gifts! Its more blessed to give than received, but it sure feels great receiving!

My enlistment letter LOL NOT! Thx so much for the unique envelope! Haha you didn't rob your headquarters did you?!

Can you see the K in this card? Haha it took me a while to realise! Thanks for the painstakeningly made card! :D

The gift tt is soon not to be lol!

Of course, how can there not be any pics from lunch?

Can't post the rest cuz they will kill me LOL!

That's all folks! Zhangyushao signing off!

Happy Birthday to Me!

2008-11-24T09:48:00.006+08:00

Happy Birthday to Me!

Happy Birthday to Kat!

Yay!!! I have finally hit 19! I am getting older but I am still a teenager! :) I have many people to give thanks to for making 24 November 2008 so special to me! I never get tired hearing the birthday song being sung! Thanks to all for spamming my facebook, my phone and and msn! haha really feel loved by all of you! Thanks to the people studying at NUS HQ for serenading me at 12am on the phone with a medley! I really hoped tt I could record down the entire song! haha its really brightened me up although exams are knocking at my door now!

Thanks for those who personally called me to wish me! Especially to Jonpaulfurryfoo for calling me at 5 am so early in the morning, rudely awakening me! Haha! Appreciate the phone call really although I lapsed into a nightmare after your call! LOL!

I had NM paper today, what a way to commemorate my 19th Birthday ehh? The greatest gift from God I would say is not an A for NM ( although it would be awesome to get it lol XD) BUT the wonderful friends he has blessed me with! :)))))) I really felt very loved and blessed with the pre exam prayer in front of the exam hall by some of the people from the HQ! This is the family of God, and I am so glad to be part of it!

Went for some ice cream with Shuangying at our dear ol Macs! Enjoyed eating ice cream with fries and talking with her! (Die alr 5 cakes and ice cream with fries!) Whilst eating, a call came from my Mom! She told me tt she placed the prezzie for me on my dressing table! The suspense! I gotta get home! Little did I know,another surprise was about to follow! I got a call from my spiritual bestie! HUIYING!!!!!! Haha apparently she dropped by school!!!! Awwwwwwwwww

so sweet right?! She presented me with Cake no.5! Haha goodness! And my fav choc! Dark CHOC! Really feel very happy and joyful to see you and share with you! I was just bursting with things to tell you! Haha we sat at KRT watching as 95 passed by 3 times b4 I decided you better get going or you would have to meet Dai Xuan another day lol! Thanks for dropping by! XD Feel so loved!

With all that is said and done, some more dates to look forward to! Celebration with the KUKU and MIGHTY Alliance on MON! Celebration with Saffie! Meeting up Huiying! Meeting up Char Kwan! Yay Thank you God for blessing me with so many good friends! :))))))))

Last but not least! PICTURES!!!

Shuangying! and my dear Zhangyushao!

My 4th cake from my shepherd!

My 5th Cake from my bestie! Thanks HUIYING!!!! XD

hey

2008-11-22T23:49:00.007+08:00

Really felt very blessed today by my fellow brothers and sisters in church! Although today is not my actual birthday, but I really felt the love from the different celebrations I had with different groups of people I love and treasure in my life. I really love this family of God!

The first celebration was with the missions team people I will be going together with to Manila in DEC! It was really unexpected! I celebrated it together with Zach, today was his spiritual bithday! Happy birthday Zach! Its a pity i had to share today with you LOL! Just kidding!!! Well here are the pics!

Happy birthday to us!

Sinful creation!

Please buy this cake, its available from Breadtalk lol!

Yups my first birthday Cake of the Year!

The second celebration!

Sorry the cupcake got finished so only two can be seen here.

My 3 bdae cakes!

From my spiritual buddy Leeyang! Thanks girl! I love you! Lets grow in our relationship together and in God too! :)

From my missions team ppl! Thanks guys! I feel so blessed and honored to celebrate my birthday with you!

A card from Victor! I discovered its existence even b4 he gave it to me haha funny guy! Thanks for your book too! :)

This is from Seow Wei my ex-sheep! Thanks so much dearie I really feel loved! :) Continue to do great things for God and continue loving! :)

This is from my CG! Argh the K got cut off! Thanks so much! I love the Zhang Yu Shao! I shall perch it atop my shoulder haha! I love the dress too! A new addition to my wardrobe!

This jar of bdae msgs is like a jar of candy that I want to savour! Each and every single one!

Zhang Yu Shao wants to look at the pics too! LOL CUTE! XD

The finished jar of goodies! :)

Trip home with Nettie! Zhang Yu Shao craze!

Guan and Ju Kai (issit spelt right?)

Thanks so much guys! Photos from my CG celebration will be up soon! I went home feeling like a very lucky girl! Lucky to have known God! Lucky to have known this Family of God! Lucky to be able to celebrate my birthday with you guys! Different of groups of ppl who made made diff impacts on my life! adding colour and flavour to my life! With the bags of prezzies on my arm, I felt happier than I did at the Thailand shopping spree! I have bags of love! :)))))

All the exams stress has evaporated from my being! I am feeling warm and fuzzy right now! XD
Thank you God! the greatest present I could ever have, I have! :)))

Zhangyushao Kat forever! :)))))

uan

5th Day at NUS

2008-11-21T20:55:00.002+08:00

Starting to feel the heat.There is a need to stay focused with God together in this. I shall concentrate more on Econs and GEK for now. :)

Just added a stats counter for my blog. Its interesting to see it increase lol!

Service is tomorrow YIPPEE!!!

Kat will remain calm!

lunchtime

2008-11-20T19:55:00.003+08:00

Lunchtime Magician
This housefly can perform magic tricks!
Whatdo you do when you are stressed? Find Felle who will show you magic tricks! LOL! XD

The bane of our existence!

Ooops they saw us!

Bugs that we found in NUS

It is quite sunny today!

Zhang Yu Shao Power!

Camwhore I say!

2008-11-20T19:46:00.006+08:00

New found spiritual a.k.a. camwhore buddy!

Counting down

10!

Blow the Pinwheel!

There's a polar bear!!!!

Ewwww! Is that a bug?

Yes it is!

Lips shot!

Eye shot!

Taking a pic with the Zhang Yu Shao!

More Camwhoring

2008-11-20T19:37:00.004+08:00

Do you love mugging?

Kiss shot 1

Kiss shot 2

Its an UFO

Safari

Portrait

Si Da says Hi!

Camwhoring

2008-11-20T11:55:00.004+08:00

Woke up with a migraine today,hope goes away. Must be the tea thinning my blood. Before mugging starts, lemme put up pics of ppl I camwhored with using my lappie cam! :)

Shuning

Calyn : Eye shot

Calyn :Muackzzzzz

Day 2 Mugging at NUS

2008-11-19T12:26:00.004+08:00

Its Mugging at NUS Day 2! Just ate lunch and all ready to start work,but first I shall do a checklist for my modules.

NM: Completed

SN: 3 more chap

EL: Completed

Econs: 4 more chap

GEK2022: Haha haven't started

O well for today I suppose I will get down to finishing exam papers for Econs and English. Complete 2 chap of SN and finish the samurai section of GEK. Leading praise and worship later for the ppl studying hope all goes well and they will get ministered and refreshed! :)))

Just to show you guys if the condition of our classroom has changed.

Okay the whiteboard is filled with more drawings and verses

People are still hard at work

Once again, the Lord is with us :)))) AMEN

Muggin at engine block

2008-11-18T11:15:00.007+08:00

Currently mugging at the engine block 1A in a classroom that our fellow brothers and sisters have stayed overnight to keep it ours! Many thanks guys! Neway here's a glimpse of the classroom!!!

Yes the Lord is with us! Believe it! :)))

The board is filled with encouraging verses!

(In case you couldn't see XD)

Its really different, muggin with your fellow brothers and sisters, there is some kind of aura in the air. Its better than the central library cuz the air there is too dry and the tension in the air is enough to make your knees go weak! (Okay maybe not haha I am exaggerating a little :P) There is a feeling of home if you get what I mean. Its my first time mugging at NUS! Hope today goes well, cover more ground!

6 Days left to exams.....

On a brighter note! I got the modelling pics alr!

Hereby, I present Singapore's Next Top Models!

Our male models are stuck in there! Help them!

Start Shot!

Pose1

Pose2

Pose3

Pose 4: Okay, Wynee I know you are emo!

Pose5: We are sad,but Mavis takes home the prize with her kneeling pose!

Pose6: Kat takes centerstage

Pose7: They didn't want to do it alone...

That's all folks! Off to mugging! Tata :)

Photos

2008-11-17T16:08:00.005+08:00

Was up till 4am last night cleaning our my keyboard! You wouldn't believe the amt of dirt that had accumulated over 3 years! Cheez if I took one whiff of the dust I think I will get high on it then die of some kind of virus lol! At least there weren't any ants crawling out of mine like someone know! I guess I have soe kind of cleanliness urges that make me so absorbed in cleaning particular things. Like my earrings and bangles sheesh! I polished till my fingers were sore, but you gotta do what you've gotta do!

Woke up late and had lunch, currently taking a break from mugging.Feeling a lil' sleepy but I shan't take a nap. I finally received pic from HY!!! So here they are! Wynee's birthday celebration pics!

Shots from HY's h/p

At Waraku, Ladies Night!

Huiying and Bong

Yinzzz

Bong, my fav shot-putt thrower!!!

Behold the KUKU AND MIGHTY ALLIANCE

HEADLINES: THE KUKU AND MIGHTY ALLIANCE RECENTLY TOOK HEEREN BY A STORM. HEEREN BECAME THEIR PLATFORM FOR MODELLING! AWAIT THE PICS...

Finally, thinking about the zhang yu shao,I think its wouldn't be tt bad to be one. If I have many many hands, imagine what I could do! Food in one hand, Drink in the other, Typing on the keyboard with 2, one hand on the mouse and guess what! I still have hands to spare! LOL XD Okay it must be the exam stress! All to the best your exams you Uni ppl! Let's glorify God with our studies! :))))

OMG

2008-11-16T19:57:00.002+08:00

Today after hours of intensive mugging, I decided to take a breather which is to go for my weekly grocery shopping. More of snack shopping actually. As I strode into United Square, to my horror! There were so many kids. I mean I like kids and all BUT!!!! There were too many for my comfort. Cute as they may be, I had to walk carefully in fear of bowling one over (which I did b4, just not today). Seriously, I am fully confident that Singapore's birth rate will start rising! Thankfully the kids are rampant only on Sundays!

A Song

2008-11-16T12:48:00.002+08:00

Just a song that I have always been trying to look for. Nine million bicycles in beijing! Love the use of wind instruments and boy does she have an ethereal voice!

zhang yu shao

2008-11-16T02:49:00.005+08:00

Today was a great sermon being preached by Dr. Brendan Kirby, the pastor of Hope Adelaide and he is a part time scientist. (This guy has a PHD how cool is tt!!!) The sermon was about apologetics and it was something very different cuz he preached from the perspective of science, something I have never encountered b4. It was really refreshing and my mind was trying to rapidly absorb what he told us about while trying to jot down sermon notes. If you ever met difficulty in explaining to your fellow friends why God exists, why Jesus is the one true God and why we should believe in the Word of God, then this is the sermon for you.

It really reaffirms my faith and really helps to spur me on in running the race for God. What we are doing is not in vain. There is a higher cause. I was shepherding my sheep today and one of the points was about how you yourself becoming an expert in one area can help others. In this case oh boy you bet your socks it did! Its really true, the statement in the bible that says that we are 'fearfully' and 'wonderfully' made. Fearful, because it is just too amazing how our body functions, the different parts that make it work. We have 17 trillion cells in our body and the structure of each cell is so fearfully complex lol! Protein synthesis, blah blah blah, I am sure we didn't crawl out of the mud. Who ever created man must have been an amazing person and must have gotten a PhD in human biology!!!!

Its really heartening and great to know that the Bible has survived the tests of many. You want Historical evidence? WE HAVE IT! You want Scientific Proof? YOU GOT IT! Is it accurate? YOU BET YOUR BOTTOM DOLLAR IT IS!

Once again, I am reminded of the importance of really getting your family and friends to accept Christ. "If we can get to God by being a good person, then Jesus did not have to die on the cross" How true is this statement. I really hope to improve in my knowledge of apologetics, it would really reflect on how much we understand and know our faith and prove tt we do not have 'blind' faith. In this world which is so full of skepticism, all the more should we Christians equip ourselves with 'Apologetics'!

Later on at night, Me, Nettie and Victor went for supper, tau huey!!!! And of course how can we not have pics! XD

Christmas tree at PS

SHEEP!!!

Nettie is not happy with something!

3 Zhang Yu Shaos

Instead of a mug shot, we took eye shots!

My eyes :)

Kat is watching, so beware! Muahahahaha! OK time to do serious mugging!

My new cut

2008-11-14T21:06:00.003+08:00

Woohoo today was filled with excitement! Met Jon Tay and Limin during lunch. We shared lives, one of the many perks that comes with having so many Hope people in FASS, NUS! Pity we didn't take a pic.

After tt, it was filled with mugging at the Central Library b4 going down to follow up on Ming Xi! It was very fruitful too! Its really a joy and blessing to be able to enjoy an have the time for sharing lives! here's a pic of the 'grey gang' at the HQ today!

The Grey Gang

Met up with Lee Yang for a good time of sharing. Let's urge each other on in this race!

If you couldn't tell that I cut my hair, you are blind! :)))

Kat ranted

The cut

2008-11-13T19:39:00.002+08:00

Finally, after much contemplation, I took the plunge and cut my fringe haha! Await my new hairstyle!

Photos

2008-11-12T23:05:00.006+08:00

Reminiscence

AJChoir

Pout Altos, POUT!

In the dressing room during our concert.

It wasn't me holding the cam but its funny how all the rest got cut out!LOL

I am not a Zhang Yu Shao!

The Dear J2 Alto Family! You girls make AJchoir special!

What's choir prac without cam whoring

Altos 4ever

The Yakuza Alto style and then again an extra Bass

No prizes for spotting him!

The Great AJchoir Family! Can you spot me!?XD

And then again, how can I ever forget, Our dear Mr Robert Toh!

I will be back with more pictures!

Loads of Love from Kat

The Nightmare

2008-11-12T19:53:00.003+08:00

I had a nightmare last night, I dreamt that I went to a donut shop and ended up finding pastries of the most terrible unappetizing kind. I was horrified and proceeded to hunt for my favorite donuts, the kind with cream or chocolate inside.

To my horror, the shopkeeper told me that there was none left. I recall going round and round the shop again, each time discovering new types of food but never the donuts I craved for. I guess I was hungry when I was dreaming of this. Haha then I woke up and when I returned frm tuition I went to the Donut factoy to what I didn't manage to in my dream! Here are my babies! One for dessert, one for supper and one for breakfast! :))))))))

Today shall mark the start of serious revision, I shall reward myself constantly with food and shopping! :)

Chubbycheeks

2008-11-12T00:36:00.004+08:00

This was a fruitful night! Had a great time sharing life with Chubbycheeks and eating good food. We walked all the way from Thomson to Bishan, the journey seemed short as we had to much to talk about. I love meeting up with my fellow dear sisters to urge each other on in the race. During tough times, our characters get honed and it is a chance fr spiritual growth. It all depends on how you look at it. There are two sides to a coin. Let me unveil the mystery behind Chubbycheeks!!! XD

Yeah its the one on the right!

Thanks so much dear for meeting up with me! I await our next meeting after our exams! Pool and buffet!

2008-11-11T20:41:00.002+08:00

The air tonight smells familiar somehow, I can't put my finger on what it smells of but I remember this smell. Its not unpleasent, slight hint of smoke and muskiness.

Just woke up from a 3 hour nap, its time to take some time to cooldown from the stressful projects and essays. Meeting Chubbycheeks for dinner later. It shall be lunch+dinner combined cuz i skipped lunch. I do not want to get gastric so I will be watching my meals from now on, as warned by Bentay. Time to build up my physical strength for the Manila missions stip.

There are still some thoughts floating around in my head, occasionally they will call out for my attention then I will ponder on it for a while. I hope to sort them out as soon and possible as there are some issues which I have just got to let go of. Its draining me emotionally and mentally. 2 more weeks to exams, hope I don't fall sick!

Psalms 127:1

Unless the LORD builds the house,
its builders labor in vain.
Unless the LORD watches over the city,
the watchmen stand guard in vain.

This is a verse which has been brought to my attention when I was a New Believer, brought to the attention of other people by me and it is still in my mind even now. God's word is not exclusive to a certain group at a certain time, but it is good for all purposes in a bid to walk right with him. Its like a manual for life that is the eternal edition, not 2008 edition.

I hope to live out this verse amidst the exam period and not forget that 100% Man and 100% God is needed. :)))

Kat shall enjoy dinner now!

Hate

2008-11-11T00:36:00.002+08:00

I need some time to sort out my thoughts. The weeks having been passing by me like gust of wind. At times I think I have gotten hold of it but in actual fact I haven't. I need to slowdown and breathe, just breathe. The importance of reflection, its power immeasurable. A good time to plan out my objectives for the Manila missions, my studying schedule and a time for my body to rest. I think my brain has been maxed out with the essays. My body is feeling the toll. My nose is on its way to blockage and my head feels a little woozy... symptoms of the flu. This is bad. God! I cannot fall sick now!

I think I should take some time off with God. Take the time for some retail therapy and a buffet.

Kat shall and should rest

Tired

2008-11-10T09:05:00.002+08:00

I am tired! Feelin sleepy at 9am as I am typing this. Only got about 5 hours of sleep last night, was up finishing my essay. I am staying away from projects next sem.

Kat ranted

Dark Chocolate

2008-11-09T22:42:00.003+08:00

Let me blog today about one of my favorite foods since it has been quite stressful so far! DARK CHOCOLATE!!! To be able to munch on one when I am sleepy or feeling stressed is absolutely heavenly! You get a sugar rush! :))) Lemme show you a pic of my love!

http://www.spicelines.com/2007/02/local_flavors_chocolate_for_ea.htm

There are so many types of dark chocolate, which are the best? Wells I must say that I dun really believe in investing so much money into one particular type of food so I wouldn't like dump 50 dollars into buying a box of chocolates. That's madness until the day I start earning my salary! I will spend tt 50 on a buffet anyday man! I can't say I have ate a lot of different kinds of dark chocolate but I have found a few favorites which I have stuck by! :))) Many thanks to people who have given me chocolates as gifts! Food make the best presents I say! XD

So far, the best and affordable chocs available that I have eaten. Hmmm Toberlone's dark chocolate which is supposedly limited edition (Although it seems to be ever present. Was tempted to stock up on it in fear of it being taken off the market.) They have found the perfect combination of cocoa beans, cocoa butter and sugar! It is not sickeningly sweet or thin like Hershey's dark chocolate bar. It has a richness that is really addictive. Next up we have Hershey's dark chocolate nuggets with truffle centers! Its really amazing i tell you! Each time you eat one, you will feel like smiling! I am serious! Go try it if you don't believe me! You will begin to look at those nuggets in a different way, they are not merely chocolates anymore. They become YOUR LOVE!!! We often see bars of chocolate with the different amounts of cocoa content printed on them. After much experimentation, 76% is the optimal percentage of cocoa content a dark chocolate should have. 86% is far too bitter for you to enjoy the chocolate.

Okay if you are not convinced by me, here are just some health benefits of eating dark chocolate from http://longevity.about.com/od/lifelongnutrition/p/chocolate.htm

Chocolate is made from plants, which means it contains many of the health benefits of dark vegetables.
They contain antioxidants which protect the body from aging caused by free radicals, which can cause damage that leads to heart disease.
Dark chocolate contains a large number of antioxidants (nearly 8 times the number found in strawberries).
Flavonoids (an antioxidant) help relax blood pressure through the production of nitric oxide, and balances certain hormones in the body.

Other benefits of dark chocolate:

it tastes good
it stimulates endorphin production, which gives a feeling of pleasure
it contains serotonin, which acts as an anti-depressant
it contains theobromine, caffeine and other substances which are stimulants

Why you should abandon milk and white chocolate:

Dark chocolate has far more antioxidants than milk or white chocolate.
These other two chocolates cannot make any health claims.
Dark chocolate has 65 percent or higher cocoa content.

Okay with all this said and done, I simply love the bittersweetness of the dark chocolate! Its like life, amongst the bitterness you may face, there will be the aftertaste of sweetness! You have to finish the chocolate to taste the sweetness! So buy me dark some dark chocolate willya! :)))

Refreshed

2008-11-08T23:27:00.004+08:00

The Stand

You stood before creation
Eternity within Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I'll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand
So what can I say

What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
So I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

This song was really awesome. Not the tune or anything but the lyrics itself. When you sing it its like a prayer to God and its really about surrendering it all to God. Let God be God! Allow him to do his work in your life. You need to trust and commit it all unto his hands.

I think this blog is great cuz I can put up my testimonies here to encourage people. haha I have lately discovered that I have a knack for praying for Y Hope people to appear lol! God has been truly faithful and he has really showed me prayers being answered instantly. It can't possibly be a coincidence cuz the probability of the occurrence of what happened to me has to be one in a trillion. Neway nw onward to the testimony.

Both prayers occured when I forgot to bring my handphone out. The first time I was supposed to meet my CG at PS for lunch on a Thursday afternoon, however I couldn't contact them and there was no one in sight at the MRT station. I was really scratching my head and thinking about what I could do. Naturally, I decided to solve it by my own means, which was to find a public phone, but I couldn't remember Victor's number so I was really at a lost. then I decided to pray haha! It went like this "God, I know that PS is a holy ground, Y Hope people are always hanging around here. Please let me find someone whom I know please!!!!!" I walked one round around the bottom level of PS looking around for any familiar faces. As I nearly finished the round I was losing heart because there wasn't anyone I knew. JUST THEN! I spied 4 brothers from the NS group whom I knew! The 4 life savers were Jon Lwee, Ding Chuen, Gerard and haha I forgot who was the last one. But how rare is it to find 4 army guys on a weekday afternoon who are from Y Hope?!!! Haha leave it up to you to do the estimate! Furthermore, they had Victor's number! Something I didn't include in my prayer! Amazing isn't it!

The second time occurred today, I was supposed to meet Nettie my dear sheep for shepherding! Then... you guessed it! I forgot to bring my phone out too! When I reached Bishan, she wasn't at the MRT station, I thought she might be later than me so I waited.... then I went to Ya Kun Kaya Toast, where we were supposed to meet. She wasn't there. I went back to the mrt station and was getting a lil' desperate, so I prayed again. I asked God to send me someone whose phone I could borrow. Then.... YES GOD PROVED HIMSELF TO BE FAITHFUL AGAIN! This time, I had 3 saviours, one was Song Jun and the other was some brother whom I didn't know. (The third one is going to appear!) I borrowed Song Jun's phone and called Jon Lim whom I knew had Nettie's number and lo and behold, he was at Singtel so I borrowed his phone to call my dear sheep!

Haha amazing isn't it? Haha lol God is sending the NS guys to my rescue! Not only do they defend our nation, they also help God to answer prayers! :)))) I just want to say a BIG THANK YOU! to God and my saviours! Haha! Who says God is not tangible! Have faith in him and he will show you wonders!

22"Have faith in God," Jesus answered.
23"I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him. 24Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
Mark 11:22-24

Amen! Why not pray a prayer of faith and see if God will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and shower you with so much blessings that it will overflow!!!

I now proclaim that J8 is a holy ground too! LOL XD!

Now on to the Healing Rally today we had as a Uni and NS group led by Pastor Peter Truong from Brisbane(Whom has the impression now that I love Shopping lol!) Remember in one of my posts back I was talking about people being skeptical about such stuff? Today I want to present you with my personal experience. I was very touched by the video he showed us about a healing which took place in Thailand, where a lady who had a massive swelling on her neck. The video showed the healing process which was simply amazing. Her healing led the church in Thailand to grow from 80 to 200! Remember I was talking about not being able to believe cuz you didn't know the people being healed personally? Now, I saw people I knew being healed. It was very powerful and when I prayed I really prayed with all my heart and the faith that I could muster for the healing of my brother and sisters. When one or two come together to pray, there my presence will be, God said. Imagine the power of like about 100 people praying!

Throughout the gathering, I felt a sense of excitement like I knew that something was going to happen, and it was going to happen to me. I had questions which I was seeking answers to. Should I let go? What was the Kingdom-minded decisions that I could make? What was God's plan for me? God was faithful and the leaders that prayed for me, Jia dai, Claramae, Guan Zhen and Zhen Zhong all helped to formulate the fabric of God's plan and his message to me that day. "Hope", "the Key" and "The surrendered heart that still has locks on it". Shan't elaborate much here. Haha! Ask me for more! Funnily, I got a migraine after tt and ice cream didn't help much either. So i prayed and decided to get some water. Then God answered my prayer again! haha he provided through Freedy Snapple! [Thanks a lot Auntie Freedy! Its sad that the offer is ending this week! No more free Snapple :*( ]

Neway I just want to do a shoutout to God! Thank you for being so faithful in my life! I give thanks to you in advance for my exams for I know that you will see me through them! :))))

Kat gave thanks!

Personality Test

2008-11-07T11:19:00.002+08:00

Just something I saw on Hy's blog.

Dynamic Thinker (DT)
(Just visiting? Take the free personality test and determine your iPersonic type!)

Dynamic Thinkers are confident and independent persons. They radiate enthusiasm and energy. Dynamic Thinkers pursue their objectives actively and energetically. They love nothing better than new challenges. This type is the born leader, competent, energetic and responsible.

They have a sharp eye for errors and can criticise without mercy if they see the success of a project endangered. They are completely unconcerned as to whether they alienate anyone in the process. But they are always open to objective arguments; they love discussions, they are very gifted rhetorically and they are good at convincing and enthusing others.As they are very sociable, Dynamic Thinkers like to have a lot of friends around them, preferably those with whom they can share their interests and discuss all sorts of subjects. They are very direct but never in an underhand or scheming manner. If you can bear being spoken to frankly, you have in them a loyal and unwavering advisor as friend.

Everything new and unknown stimulates Dynamic Thinkers and awakens their curiosity. However, rules, routine and traditional things arouse their resistance. If something does not go the way they want it to, they can react rather pigheadedly and obstinately.Dynamic Thinkers expect a great deal of themselves and of others. Whoever does not fit in with their scheme of things does not have it easy. They sometimes appear to be rather severe due to their frankness. Partners and family also find it difficult to satisfy Dynamic Thinkers. They know exactly what they want and compromising is inconceivable to them. Whoever has an Dynamic Thinker as partner should have a strong personality and have a great deal of independence and sufficient self-confidence in order to give this dominating type some opposition. Normally, for Dynamic Thinkers, a partnership only takes second place after their profession. But they like to have someone at their side who is a match for them intellectually, with whom they can pursue mutual objectives and have interesting discussions all night long; preferably factual discussions - sentimentalism and romance are not their thing.

Adjectives which describe your type extroverted, theoretical, logical, planning, rational, self-confident, ambitious, direct, open, severe, organised, determined, witty, independent, purposeful, dynamic, energetic, optimistic, competent, responsible, clever, intellectual, enthusiastic, demanding, structured, controlled, aggressive

These subjects could interest you literature, sport (golf, tennis, running), travel, career, strategy games, politics

Wahaha surprisingly this is quite true. :) You might want to try it too!

Deadlines!!!!

2008-11-07T10:21:00.002+08:00

Module
Date
Time

NM1101E
24 Nov 2008 (How can this be!!!!!!)
Afternoon

EC1101E
26 Nov 2008
Afternoon

EL1101E
27 Nov 2008
Morning

GEK2022
28 Nov 2008
Afternoon

SN1101E
29 Nov 2008
Morning

Haha now I understand why deadlines are called deadlines. Cuz if you don't meet them you are DEAD!!! I have deadlines coming up and next tue will be a day of relief for me, I will be kissing my GEK project goodbye. Haiz hope tt me and Kee Meng will be able to cough it out. O wells no time to lose! Kat shall be more disciplined! Less sleep! Less Leisure! More studying time! But the time spent with God won't change! :)